bluring time

I don't have time for that shit. Why are you wasting my time! There's
not enough time. What time is it? So many boys, so little time. You
know what time it is. But what is time? My whole life I've struggled
to understand time. I'm thinking about time all the time, why I don't
have it, when I do have it how do I conserve it, and sometimes it
passes way too fast, sometimes not fast enough. Time always alludes my
comprehension. Time is a dimension I guess, a fundamental part of the
universe, but even though it's so fundamental, I'm stating to find
discrepancies- gaps, lags, holes, fissures in time, perhaps leading
one to believe that time is not a constant in the universe?

Almost all of the programming on the universe loves to talk about
time, and they've been broadcasting about time for a hot minute. Due
to what scientists can (currently) measure about the universe, it
seems as though time is changing and speeding up- time is not a
constant when applied to space. Still, many people think time to be
completely not measurable at all. I wonder if all points in time have
already happened, and I'm moving backwards in time, or perhaps through
some other archaic and unorganized way.

I like to think of time not as a single point, but rather as a blur of
my immediate past and immediate future. Time ultimately is my enemy,
my nemesis, my constant. I get so wrapped up and lost in time. Time is
passing as a write this, I don't have any time to wa$te, because they
weren't kidding when they said time is money. Do I have enough time to
do all that I intend to? And what about enough space, do I have that
as well?

I've time travel is possible, but then again anything is possible. If
physics can already bend time, then why can't we make a tunnel?
There's a lot of things I'd need to go back and change in that case,
because I've made a few too many mistakes in my life, and regrets are
a bitch as well as a waste of time.

I've fantasized about one equation for time this entire time! I think
time is measurable, hence it has to be able to be described
mathematically. I recently saw one for time and energy, T(E)=A.R.T.
which I really liked, I think it's cool and inspiring. Time is art?
Maybe time is infinity. Determinism is real? How can I know? Now all
we need is one master equation for the universe and we're all set. It
can't be that far away. I might not be the one to do it, but perhaps I
can contribute?

It seems obvious that intelligent life will one day decide the future
of the universe, which would make us the aliens (living forever and
travelling through space and time).