things that suck hard

sarah palin
mini coopers
corporate pay offs and buy outs
slip knot
xtina
insane clown posse
avril lavigne
katy perry
the weather this summer

my life

I realize that there are times when I've completely transformed into a character that I've used in my erotic fiction.

I have no boundaries, when it comes to either physicality, or crossing mental and emotional boundaries that are normal and not meant to be crossed.

I find myself performing, saying the perfect next line in the script. I never allow myself to loose control, and as forced as it sounds, I really feel it.

I accept that I disassociate, oftentimes I don't even realize that I'm doing it. I have no problem getting lost in the moment, but then that moment was all I had.

I will say I love u the night I meet u. They usually say it, either first, or in some capacity, and I go through the complete range of motions.

I experience complete enmeshment with people, and as quickly as I think I've made progress with them, as intimate as I think we've become, it's completely over and the love is gone.

Those moments are the greatest possible of highs, stronger than the best ecstasy, more seductive than unboundless love.

moon

Hope for good weather because the next total lunar eclipse won't happen until December 2010.