balance

In my life, I constantly strive for balance. I still have a really hard time even know. I had all these emotions from my whole life bottled up. I'm not going to lie, I still have a lot of rage inside me. I don't know where it comes from. It's usually mixed with strange feelings of helplessness and powerlessness. Thank Buddha for Oprah, and her shows on rage.

But anyways, getting back to balance.

I know someday soon I will be there. It's waiting for me in my future. I want to achieve infinite personal balance. I want to be happy all the time. The infinity sign reminds me of balance.

I know my life is a journey of truth. I'm not talking about personal truths, because in the end, I find those to be "beliefs." I'm trying to get as close as possible to real truth.

I often wonder I don't really find books about gay spirituality.