I'm being pulled in different directions

I was born on April 18, and nobody would try to dent that I'm a typical aries. But my immum coeli is cancer, which means my life wants to transition into this other sign which is completely different from my natural state. Cardinal fire vs. cardinal water. In short, they could not be more different, because they are total opposites.

I fell the pull inside myself, because half the time all I want is domestic bliss- a stable home with the man I love so I could raise kids, and I genuinely feel like that's the only thing that matters. This has to be my personality trying to transition into cancer (high EQ) vs. my natural state of aries (high IQ). But then, the other half of the time, all I want is fame, power, influence, and respect, and I feel the fiery drive to be in charge of everything.

Because it seems like one can never have it all, I have to make a choice. What do I really want? This is the hardest choice I'll ever have to make. I hope my fire can burn bright enough to get everything I want.