things I require in a man

I'm not delusional enough to fall in love, but I have 6 pieces of criteria when choosing a love interest- how big is the dick, lips, and ass, what kind of drugs does he do, how much money does he have, and what kind of car does he drive.

JK!

Anyone who knows me well knows that I'm extremely stubborn and essentially tell people what they want to hear, then do whatever I want. I rarely take advice, but I did get some advice today that I'm really taking to heart.

Anyways, the bit of advice I got was if I want to settle down I should stop looking. It makes a lot of sense actually! So I accept reality. I'm not going to try to force anything. I may never fall in love again. If that happens, I will survive.

With that being said, brainstorming exactly what I want could really help me to focus on what I can get out of a relationship. I'm not crazy. I know forever does not exist, and I accept the fact that healthy relationships mean not being jealous and allowing the other person freedom. Relationships can only work out if both people are really allowed to just be themselves.

In the past I've realized that I've been everything except myself. I'm a people pleaser, and Oprah says people with that personality type are really full of rage. I get so wrapped up in what I think I'm supposed to be, or what I think the other person wants, needs, and expects from me that I end up completely losing myself in someone else. For many reasons this is comforting to me, but not condusive to a healthy relationship that can last.

I really do feel like I've had enough fun. I've been scandalous enough and wild in the streets too many times. I've done a fuck ton of drugs, had sex with way too many guys (every sign of the zodiac except Scorpio and Sagittarius, but who's counting) and already had enough short lived dysfunctional romances to label myself a serial dater. I struggle with codependency and enmeshment, which I blame on my abusive childhood. Yet, as dysfunctional and miserable as my parents marriage was, I know the only reason I'm able to maintain relationships at all is because they never got divorced.

Obviously, I wouldn't date myself but every day I am trying to be better. I don't think I'm ugly, but I do accept the fact that I'm a ghetto loser and I know that's why I can't get a man. The only constant in life is change, and I am trying to forgive myself and let things go. I have a lot of potential into which I'm not tapping, and I accept responsability for that.

I'm not asking for u to fall in love, or for some great romance. Just be with me until the feeling's gone...

I'm looking for someone who wants adventure and to experience life by my side. Someone who can chill when it's time to be calm. I accept the fact that I can't change anybody and my significant other has to feel the same way. Love that lasts forever means you have to keep choosing that person every day, and codependency is not sustainable.

Physically, I'm attracted to really hot guys, and the method for measuring beauty would be the Hollywood paradigm. I prefer flawless faces and bodies, but past that I find myself attracted to big lips, huge cocks, and big asses. I need someone who can keep up with me sexually, who wants to get off with me at least 2 or 3 times a day.

doesn't try to make me jealous (there is a huge difference between being free and yourself and doing things in an underhanded way)

accepts the fact that open relationships are not relationships, it just means one is having sex with another person more than all the others

accepts fitness and nutrition as a life long commitment

surprises me and keeps me interested

has social grace and knows how to deal with people

wants to become wealthy together

tips well and speaks to everyone in a respectful manner

open minded

feels the same way as me about politics and religion

a good attitude

likes house music

cool with weed

knows how to pick fruit and vegetables

likes kids and animals but doesn't want any