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The older I get, the less I want to reveal about myself. I'm forever
chasing the impossible dream of mystery; making myself into the
greatest work of art requires omission. I want to be the best kept
secret, and it's because I'm greedy. I want it all, and I want it for
myself.

Whenever people get to know me and I choose to reveal myself, they
inevitably fall away. I hate being abandoned, even less mysterious
than ever before. People talk, it's stupid to pretend like that
doesn't happen. I hate it when someone gets to know me, quickly and
easily discovering how painfully predictable and average I happen to
be. I want to be different, legendary, the stuff people write books
and paint pictures of. I loose that edge, which is all that really
matters when it comes to attraction. I'll take any form of power I can
get at this point.

My motivations are clandestine, I take no side.

I've come to value omission. In the words of Flora from Real World
Miami, "Lying is lying, but not saying is something totally
different." But where does that psychologically come from, why do I
think it's important, and why do I want to be mysterious?

It seems like the unknown is what attracts people.

SO, does that I mean I partially want to be mysterious because that's
the way I think people want me to be? It's just so hard to live up to
expectations.

Everyone wants to know something they didn't know before. Do you want
to know a secret, I'll tell you everything...