isolation

Recent psychological studies suggest that there are two types of loneliness.

Everyone needs someone to love, in a romantic and intimate way, and one kind of loneliness results from not having it.

At the same time, everyone needs to interact with everyone else, in effect to be social and have consistent interaction with friends, peers, colleagues, and even strangers and meeting new people.

So, essentially, you can have a stable relationship and still be lonely, or be completely surrounded by friends all the time, and still be lonely.

I've been doing better. I realize now that I have to be my own daddy, and make myself happy. I've been thru a lot and lost everything... but it was never mine to begin with. Failure and nothingness are the dominant themes to my life.

But I'm still ghetto as fuck. I'm about $25,000 below the poverty level. I know with certainty that I won't make it to 30 living like this, because I don't have the will to keep living a painful, meaningless existance full of suffering and submission. I hope something good happens to me.