tv on the internet

I've noticed that tv and the internet are becoming the same thing. I guess the first time I noticed would have been when cable networks began to air tv shows about hot content that day on the internet. Soon after, I began to notice entire websites through which one could watch tv shows! Genius. And may I ask, why didn't the internet have these resources a long time ago?

A sobering reality for me was the realization that the internet is now more captivating than tv, which I thought would never happen. For many years, I thought the internet was only good for looking at porn, and never thought that I could use the intetnet to produce my own entertainment which could reach a global audience at any time and not just the limited audience tv exposure allows.

I didn't get lucky with parents, in fact mine were as about as shitty as parents get, so to make a long story short I was raised by the tv. I often wonder if my brain is now fucked up from all the endless hours I spent in front of a tv screen. Even now, I'm addicted to tv; I'm self aware enough to know I'm addicted, and I've come to the conclusion that it could be so much worse. I could be addicted to crack, heroin, starving myself, or cutting, but instead I'm addicted to something banal and harmelss, and the most important thing is it doesn't make me look worse.

TV has had a huge impact on my life. It has affected my life's decisions, values, and interests. TV has helped me decide what I like and want and don't like and don't want, and inspired me in endless ways. It was because of TV that I discovered life long influences such as Oprah or Paris Hilton. It's the one friend who is always there, and no matter how low I feel, or how convinced I am that I need to kill myself this second, it always distracts me enough from reality so I can go on. Mostly, what keeps me going on is the knowledge that there's still new episodes to look forward to, and if I didn't have something so uplifting to look forward to, who knows what would happen? Obviously, I wish life could be like TV. I want to live in a world where everyone lives in a nice clean house, everyone is attractive and lit to show off their best features, and real life problems are never the main theme. But it never will be like that.

I'm sure we've all read the scientific studies that say tv affects your brain in the same way a drug does, activating reward pathways, etc. I basically have it on all the time, because like a comforting presence, it calms me down and makes me think that nothing bad is going to happen. How could something go wrong, the tv is on? Throughout my whole life, TV is the one friend who never lets me down, but just like friends in real life, often has nothing new to say, just replaying the same shit over and over. Seriously, look through what's coming up, all the shit is years old! Sometimes, when I'm on the internet I even feel like I'm cheating on tv.

I recently went to see Wall-E, the newest pixar movie, and was surprized to find that tv and the intetnet had been combined all on one screen, in the fictional future scenario. I guess I thought it was sage advice. How great would it be to watch any tv show online whenever you want, or to be able to scroll the internet and get valuable information while still watching tv?