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For my whole life finding love has been my number one goal... I choose not to talk to peers about this goal because it makes one sound week. I'm just like my mom when it comes to guys- infinitely weak, incalculably more naive.

As I've gotten older, my priorities in life and views on love and human relationships have changed. I'm more experienced, and understand some things more deeply than I did when I was young.

Now it doesn't matter who I'm with, I always find myself thinking about other guys. Throughout the day, I find myself attracted to more than one attractive man.

It's for these reasons I feel like my love can never be pure.