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Usually, I think the world is closing in on me, and I'm the only
person who knows whats real. I also know that I'm psychic, only how
powerful I can't tell. I really liked what Pepa said about being
psychic on The Surreal Life, she summed it up pretty well. It is
creepy to acknowledge that aspect of one's self, often this power is a
burden more than a blessing. I'm starting to see more and more signs,
and it scares me. As much as I love to pretend I'm invincible, my fate
scares me.

8- "you entered this plane armed to lead, direct, organize and
govern...if you are a positive 8 you are endowed with tremendous
potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas, and also
possessing the tenacity and independence to follow them through to
completion..." p.s. Goodness = 8 letters

In addition to that, in Western Astrology I was born on the Cusp Of
Power, which "can" make me into a "dreamer" and a "doer" but "not in a
hurry" to see results. On top of that, I'm an Aries, and my Tarot Card
is The Emperor.

In Chinese Astrology I'm a Rat, who leave no mystery to their obvious
plans for power, wealth, influence, and prestige.

I find it strange that there's no feeling I hate more than
powerlessness and failure. It makes me want to cut myself. Maybe all
this crazy shit is real? It's getting harder and harder to know.