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Until the age of 17, I thought I was totally unattractive. I had convinced myself I wasn't hot enough to get guys to fuck me. One day, I decided to stop wasting time, and instead, I should just tell myself that I'm one hot motherfucker. It really worked out.

Now whenever I look in a mirror I only see the truth, and it's good. It's fun having high self esteem, my life has been so different from depressing, cutting filled days of 1990 never. In many ways I was smart about it, because I always always always use(d) a brand new razor, which cuts so cleanly that if you let it heal and tan only 2 or 3 times, nobody would ever know. Oh no, I'm narcissistic as well!

Not like I don't have hang ups, I'm really neurotic, germophobic, toxiphobic, bipolar, cheap, too honest for my own good, and I can't trust anybody, no matter how hard I try. Trust is a big one for me, I feel really alone most of the time due to my inability to trust people. Clearly, it comes from my dysfunctional family, and people who pretended to love me.

I'm still having a quarter life crisis, but I think I can pull myself out of it. I'm a work in progress, just like everyone else. Honestly, the only thing that really ever gets me down is my current level of success...