A list of every guy I've had sex with

A lot of people don't know how many guys they've fucked, and I worry for those people because it seems reasonable to assume they are not thinking objectively about risks for STDs and HIV! I feel like this is a good time to reiterate that I only have safe sex even with boyfriends. Ironically, I am also statistically 1/10 as promiscuous of members of my peer group, and I write down everything in my diary.

As a gay person who has a small amount of internalized homophobia, I consider anything past kissing to be sex. Essentially if other people are in the room with you and you have an orgasm I almost consider that to be sex.

Here's a list of all the guys I've had sex with. They are listed in the order when I first had sex with them, the age at which I first had sex with them, their astrological sign, a grade of how good they were, and a brief note.

1. Jordan 19, White, Pisces, D+, not hot enough for me, uncut.

2. West 18, White, Taurus, A+, huge dick & very consistent will always miss.

3. Levi 22, White, Libra, B, not masculine enough to keep me interested.

4. Chun Yin 20, Asian, Aquarius, C, hole hungry for my dick but passionless.

5. Rik 53, White, Gemini, A-, so kinky that I still can't say no.

6. Seth 24, White, Aries, F, one night stand, passionless.

7. Rafi 40, Middle Eastern, Leo, C-, one night stand, passionless.

8. Fernando 39, Mexican, Cancer, C, great guy but lacking in too many areas.

9. Carlos 25, Mexican, Aries, B-, hot but lacking in too many areas.

10. Kerry 30, White, Virgo, A-, one night stand, visiting from abroad, uncut.

11. Drew 43, Black, Aries, C, amazing dick but a tit pig and sketchy.

12. Joshuar 19, Mixed Mexican/Greek/Japanese, Capricorn, B+, hot, young, and a biter, big dick uncut.

13. Alexander 23, Native American, Sagittarius, B, pushes all the right buttons, uncut.

14. Jaime 30, Mexican, Leo, D-, Foot fetish and bad kisser, uncut

15. Marco 23, Mexican/Italian, Libra, C, popers in the club lead to head in his car

16. Brian 30, White, Scorpio, A, Over 8 inches with an 8g prince albert, eventually let him stick it in and my ass bled for 4 days ;D

17. Gustavo, 30, Mexican, Leo, D-, non-existant dick and too hairy

love addiction

I am addicted to the feeling of being in love.

Everybody has problems, yet mine always seem the most insurmountable because I have to live them. I don't have problems living in the moment, creating my own happiness, or with anxiety or insecurity- all of my biggest interpersonal struggles come from unrealistic expectations of love and love interests.

Like many people, my physically and sexually abusive childhood negatively affects my psychology, and even now as an adult I am not able to function in normal ways. One of the textbook definitions of narcissistic personality disorder is a preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love, and all of these traits are part of my daily experience. Although some narcissistic traits are common and can be part of maturing, when these traits are compounded by a failure of the interpersonal environment and continue into adulthood they can cause serious issues which may manifest into addiction and addictive behavior.

Just to quickly touch on other aspects of addiction in my life, I'd like to say that it's obvious that I have substance abuse problems, which are very common to members of the gay community. I have not been sober for more than a few days my entire adult life. In all honesty it's rare that I go more than half a day being sober. I was in my late teens when I started using, and I often feel like I'm a teenager frozen in time. Perhaps the drug abuse enables the love addiction in a way because my brain will not mature and handle feelings in a responsible manner. To my brain, handling emotions in an immature fashion makes me feel safe.

Now that I have gotten a little bit older, I realize there are major differences between me and a mentally healthy individual. I personally think I might have attachment disorders because my sense of boundaries with other people, both physical as well as emotional, are often non-existent. I always think I'm "classy" but the truth is that if I think a guy happens to be just cute enough, let alone hot, I will start to have sex with him within the first few minutes of contact! As long as I feel like the person is into me I cross boundaries that are not appropriate to be crossing, which gets me into trouble and probably is the real reason why all my romances are short lived and dysfunctional.

It takes me all of a few minutes to fall in love with someone, and I get infatuated with guys way too fast. I have done every drug except for heroin, and to be quite honest the exhilaration and euphoria I get from a guy feels a million times better to me than any chemical could. In my life, as long as I have a love interest I stay optimistic whether or not that person reciprocates feelings. Every time I develop feelings for another man, my reasoning and logic goes completely out the door. I see things in people that do not exist because I want them to, and I build guys up to an impossible paragon of perfection just because I get wrapped up in my emotions and can't handle reality. Obviously, nothing works out, and rationally I know that I can't expect that much from guys.

I realize now that most of what I think and feel about love are views that I inherited from my mother, and they are both delusional and unhealthy. When I am in a relationship, I become obsessed with keeping that person in my life no matter how toxic the relationship is to me, because at the end of the day I know that love isn't real and I'm trying to force it into my life. I become a totally different person- essentially everything except myself in the hopes that I am playing the game flawlessly. I get codependent fast, and completely lose my identity in another person. All of my relationship patterns are predictable, and always turn out the same way. This cyclical manifestation of codependency is an example of how serious my disease really happens to be.

Obviously all this sounds totally retarded, and could apply to every human, but Dr. Drew says that addiction really does encompass any cyclical behavior that is negatively impacting ones life, and to be quite honest this is my biggest challenge.

I've lived long enough to understand that love does not exist, and it's not possible to find happiness in another person. If I am ever able to accept these feelings I think I could overcome my amorous narcissism.

Jealousy is such an evil thing...

Now that I am older, I've come to have a much more realistic view of love and relationships. When I was younger, and even in the recent past I held onto unrealistic expectations of people, love, and relationships, and I made the huge mistake of assuming that finding a relationship would make my life be better and make me a happier person.

I've gotten off to a slow start and only had sex with a few guys in the beginning, thinking that I would somehow find "the one" and settle down, which does not happen in gay relationships especially when one is younger. I've been with a lot more people now, and I accept the fact that nobody will ever just be mine. Demanding a life time commitment from someone is both unfair and unrealistic. Jealousy is a negative emotion and one I don't want to have in my life, and moving past it has been a huge challenge but has made me much more well adjusted and fit to survive in the complex, modern world.

I love it when I go out and I see guys I hooked up with hooking up with other guys. It turns me on a lot actually! Even when boyfriends cheated on me I didn't get mad unless they lied about it... there's something sexy about seeing someone u know intimately hook up or have sex with other people. In a way one gets a truer sense of who the person really is.

With that being said, I don't think I could ever be in an open relationship, because I don't think of them as real. In my opinion, one is just having sex more with one person than they are with everyone else.

I know I should read The Ethical Slut because a lot of people told me that it's a good book but I feel like journeying into this world would be depressing for me, because it would be another example of trying to accept the fact that love does not exist.

Darrin Goodness's tips for bottoming

I tell others that I am an oral top, and that's the truth... cause I'll suck your dick and eat you out, but then I want to fuck that ass after. I only bottom for boyfriends, or someone I'm close to because it takes a lot of trust to let someone go down there and get freaky.

But the real truth is that I am a true versatile. I rarely fuck, but I like to get fucked just as much as I love fucking. It seems as though people who are really into top and bottom roles most likely are suffering from internalized homophobia. I don't feel the same everyday, and don't really see how others could. Always 50/50 in relationships.

What people really fail to realize is that the all anal interludes we enjoy thru porn are totally not reality! A lot of time and effort goes into bottoming... unless you're older and been fucked by many guys over the course of many years, things like that don't just happen. Bottoms rule! It gets messy... put a towel down.

When I was young I just automatically assumed I would hate being fucked and it would never feel good, and for many years that was the case. I was always blown away by some guys ability to really take it hard, and in every position, nobody from my generation can claim that porn did not have a significant impact to the way they view sex and sexuality. However, as I've gotten older and more time passes, I've found that getting fucked right by a good dick can be amazing and make me cum really hard!

rule number 0- safe sex is not something that's up for debate! Be safe and live long enough to find the right one. I have never let a man fuck me raw even once in my entire life even though I have been in multiple long term relationships. Long story short, guys were dirty and picking things up here and there. Your sexual health is not something to take lightly! Sex can kill and it's been so since I was born. Obviously, if you and you man are in it for the long haul, and you are absolutely sure that you and he are not messing around with other people you may choose to have raw sex.

1. Practice makes perfect! In order to be able to accommodate a penis inside your asshole one must get a toy to learn how to be able to relax and what to feel. I personally think the only dildos that one can work with are the really soft and squishy jelly ones... the only thing that sucks is you probably still have to put a condom on it. Better yet let your partner loosen you up. Thrusting is not really an aspect of loosening up. If you're laying on your back, always make sure it goes in and then up towards your crotch- that's the proper way to hit the prostate. It helps a lot if you clean yourself out back there. Don't mess with the ass if you're having digestive issues that day.

2. If you want to fuck an ass you better be ready to eat it out first! If you have a full beard be careful cause the skin back there can get broken easily. Younger guys can get rimmed for longer periods of time... it feels better to them because they still have more sensation overall back there. Older guys just want their ass licked for a minute or two and then they want the dick.

3. Nobody knows why, but everyone assumes that bottoms like fingering. I've never really met one who has sung the the praises of it but it can feel good if the guy knows how to do it right. Make sure your fingernails are cut the fuck back and hang nails are not present! If a guy knows how to stimulate your prostate you can cum really hard from fingering- really fat fingers can feel good if you go in then pull up and keep stimulating the boy g spot. Spit can work but it doesn't hold up.

4. Use a lot of lube and make sure some of get some inside the hole. Even if the guy is uncut, an anus is not able to lubricate on its own, so you need some help in that department. In all honesty numbing cream can be your friend, although some people think it can be dangerous cause you don't realize if things are getting torn up or not.

5. The only way to get a dick inside me is for me to sit on it. I don't know about y'all, but after I can get a little more relaxed then we can change positions, but if the dick comes out, then I have to sit on it again. There's 2 sphincters- the internal and the external... the external is easier to learn to relax, it's the internal muscle that is always clenched up. When I fuck a guy I don't thrust too much, cause I know it doesn't feel good. The best way to fuck is to just go deep, and then pull up. If you really get all the way in and then gently and really slowly move your dick up and around inside it will stimulate the prostate and not just push and pull on the skin lining the entrance to the asshole, which burns and gets irritated. That way, the base of your cock is putting all the pressure on your bottom's prostate and that feels a lot better than just getting fucked.

6. Bigger really is better, especially when we're talking about girth. In my experiences, smaller dicks poke around the walls on the inside, so things aren't really hitting right. Really big dicks just kind of fill everything up from the inside, and I suppose put more pressure on the prostate, so it feels better overall.

7. Bottoms rule! If you're allowing a man to put his penis inside you, that means all of a sudden you are in charge that cock. If he is thrusting too much, or it's not feeling good take control! It's up to you to communicate to him whether or not he's making you feel good, and a good top makes sure his bottom cums hard with a dick in the ass. That's how one becomes a good fuck.

8. Drugs and alcohol should be avoided during sex, if you need a substance to be able to perform that means you have a sexual dysfunction which is unhealthy and more importantly you can end up damaging tissue.

I personally like kissing, jerking, and sucking the best. I like to be playful and innocent with guys, but everyone likes something different. If you find someone you like and want to do everything with that person, make sure communication is open and honest. Getting fucked is supposed to feel good, not be a daunting task from which nobody receives pleasure...

les nouvelles

China breaks ground on space launch center

CDC: H1N1 flu vaccine to be ready by early October

Laskers Honor Work On Stem Cells, Gleevec & Smoking Ban

Men are producing 'super-sperm' too fast and powerful to impregnate women, as scientists blame evolution for infertility rise

Key master gene that can KILL cancer identified by British scientists

Capsules for Self-Healing Circuits
Nanotube-filled capsules could restore conductivity to damaged electronics.

Can Science Make Immortality a Reality?

Showerheads Harbor a Bounty of Germs

Federal researchers have found "intersex" fish -- with both male and female characteristics -- in rivers from the deep Southeast to the Pacific Northwest, indicating that a condition found in the Potomac River is more widespread than previously known.

no news is good news

Male circumcision, already shown to reduce the incidence of H.I.V. infection in men, also reduces transmission of both herpes simplex virus Type 2 and human papilloma virus, a new study has found.

I have nothing nice to say about circumcision. It ruins lives, myself included.

AUSTIN, Texas (AP) — Texas science teachers will no longer be required to teach weaknesses of scientific theory, including evolution, under new curriculum standards tentatively adopted by the State Board of Education on Thursday.

The whole world has nothing nothing nice to say about tex-ass... myself especially. I think it's where people go to rebecome monkeys.

Sting Operation Exposes Gaps in Oversight of Human Experiments

les nouvelles

LONDON, March 1 (Reuters) - Researchers said on Sunday they had found a safer way to transform ordinary skin cells into powerful stem cells in a move that could eventually remove the need to use human embryos.

-> the original breakthrough, of transforming skin cells to stem
cells, used to have an increased risk of cancer, but via the latest
breakthrough, it's a thing of the past.

Chinese probe crashes into moon

-> I've been reading that Obama is going to give NASA more money,
which will allow then to retire all the space shuttles...

Forests in the sky could be built to clean air of pollution belched out by factories

Wow, this one really captured my imagination!

Mars had running water on its surface less than a million years ago, new evidence suggests.

A fishy discovery: Sex as we know it started 30million years earlier than previously thought

not the first time I've heard this debate...

Is Having Sex with a Robot Hooker Cheating? Revisited

-> why does everyone love to talk about robot sex workers, when I don't even really see any before my eyes??

news via google news

Jupiter Moves Toward Rendezvous With Venus

Hubble back in full snapping mode

I always like to keep up to date with outer space. It's hard to think that life on earth really matters when one takes into account the vastness of the universe- futility, meaninglessness, nothingness, and the earth/planet(oids) are micro....

Almost Half of Women Have Sexual Problems

-> Wow, totally not at all a surprize to me! I hope female friends read this.

UPDATE 1-Researchers find more Alzheimer's genes

-> Thank Buddha that genetic engineering will finally put an end to all of these outdated genetic diseases. Genetic manipulation is not bad nor dangerous, simply rearranging pre-existing genes in more beneficial combinations.

news

Sexual Satisfaction More About Psychology And Less about Biology,Study Says

OMG, didn't Jenna say all that in her book! How To Make Love Like A Porn Star is my bible.

CDC Campaign Targets MRSA Infections


Vitamin B12 Key to Aging Brain Deficiency led to more brain shrinkage, study shows

EPA to develop stricter standards for ocean water

Particle Accelerator Speeds Into an Age of 'New Physics'

O3B satellites could bring real net access to rest of world

HOUSTON — In a leaked e-mail intended for top advisors, NASA chief Michael Griffin last month lamented the mandated 2010 retirement of the agency's space-shuttle fleet, as well as the likelihood that U.S. astronauts will be absent from the International Space Station for extended periods in the future.

news

SunPower Corp. of San Jose will announce plans today to build the country's largest photovoltaic solar power plant in Florida.

Water Found on the Moon

Spacewalk Outside Soyuz to Determine Malfunction

CREATOR OF Second Life, Linden Lab and IBM have achieved virtual world interoperability by teleporting avatars between the Second Life Preview Grid and an Opensim virtual world server.

CHICAGO (AP) — The American Medical Association on Thursday issued a formal apology for more than a century of discriminatory policies that excluded blacks from participating in a group long considered the voice of U.S. doctors.

Seniors Having More Sex Than Ever

America is losing its lead in the space race as other countries challenge its dominance on the "final frontier", the head of Nasa has warned.

The more obvious rivals such as Russia and Europe have been joined by countries as diverse as Brazil, Israel and India, which are all launching their own space programmes.

A recent report on international space competitiveness by Futron, an American technology consultancy, concluded that "systemic and competitive forces threaten US space leadership". America had failed to keep track of how quickly the "globalisation" of space was occurring, the study said.

Meanwhile, as Asians and Europeans became increasingly enthusiastic about manned space exploration, public interest in the US was "limited", said the study. In 1998, the US launched 121 new satellites but that number had fallen to 53 - about 50 per cent of the total - by 2007.

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Plus, stupid whores get they ass filled up from an enema, and somebody smokes weed out of that shit.

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This made me laugh.