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Today is Solitaire's birthday!

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DIAMOND IN THE ROUGH

Make sure to read Solitaire's blog! There's something that Solitaire knows, that nobody else knows...

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"The Modern Tribal Housewife"
Abstract: This is a fetishized, glamorized, exoticized persona allegorical of the post-apocalyptic nuclear family in the global multinational era.

I think Dinaz might be a genius!!!

check out her website for more info.

Dee Dee TV

Dee Dee TV is my favorite show, and she's my favorite artist! I totally remembered to watch Dee Dee TV tonight- Channel 29 11pm Fridays. My friends came over tonight, I love watching Dee Dee TV with other people. Everybody loves her show. She's the only real woman on television- she's my favorite reality tv star.

1/16

After work today, I went to Dolores Park. I met up with my friend Hilary and her bf. I love her so much. I often feel like we're 2 sides of the same coin. I will never stop loving her. I'd just like to take a second to say that her strength, intelligence, wisdom, and power inspire me the most. When it comes to my science, her opinion is the only opinion I really care about and respect, because I know that she's a genius- probably a much greater genius than I can ever hope to be. I think I'm just going to piggyback my career goals onto hers, because I know she's destined to do great things for the world. Hardly anyone makes an impression on me, she'll always be someone important to me.

I should write a book about platonic love, because I have so much of it.

Dinaz E! True Hollywood Story

"She would do anything for sex. Anything. There were so many men. So many boys, so little time, I used to always joke with her. [sniffle] Inside, she was different, and I don't know if anyone ever really got that deep with her. She had a lot of sex, but love? I loved Dinaz. I often wonder if she really ever loved anybody, even herself. I know that deep inside, she just wanted to be loved."

"Dinaz was definitely a nymphomaniac. She was wild in bed. She'd fuck a couple of times in the day and then fuck through the night. She would fuck four times in a row- she was insatiable. She'd demand sex again and again. She'd go at it for hours. She'd have worn out most guys. Nobody could believe they were looking down at D-Na$$ty naked. Dinaz was so hot. She had an amazing body. Her backside is fantastic, perfect, all plump and round. She has great curves but her belly is nice and flat and toned. She'd do anything to get guys off."

"Getting inside her mind was the hardest, but if you got there watch out. There was really no going back. Her adaptation and resourcefulness were her most inspiring traits. That and her willingness to wholeheartedly embrace new art forms such as digital and performance. It's not often a genius like that is born. Maybe only every 100 years or so."

"She would do anything for shoes, including steal them. She was so good at that, she always got what she wanted, and thank god! She had such a thing for accessories, as long as she was consistently surrounded by gorgeous things, she was on top of her game. She knew a lot about the world. Sometimes, I wondered if she could get away with murder if she just tried. She got so much so fast, but it never really went to her head. She would always joke about selling out, but I know she just wanted everyone to enjoy her vision. She was sketchy though, make no mistake. If she met a hot guy at a club, I'd have to find my own way home. She'd do just about anything to hang out with the elite. Sometimes, I felt like she was trying to make up for her less than glamorous young adult life. But in the end, she always lived in poshest places around the world, drove nice cars, dressed in couture. By all accounts, she made it. She really only had to worry about becoming too famous too fast."

"I remember the drugs. They were always fun, but they came at a price. It was such a tragedy. She loved to get high, I knew it helped her escape her past. She was always chasing the impossible, always wandering. But not all who wander are lost. She really just wanted everyone to love her. She's this generations iconic blond."

"She only cared about herself. Ephemeral & eternal- it's her legacy."

"The sex tape really affected her, you know? She was never the same after that- she felt less than what she was. She took her career and herself very seriously, you know? Some things are just really insulting. It was as if they wanted to see her fall, fuck up, do something resembling human. She was too perfect for most people, you know? Deep down, she really just wanted everyone to love her. That sex tape was hard for her, it really intensified things with her family."

"Paris was the only celebrity Dinaz every really referenced. I don't think anyone ever really understood it. She was trying to represent an idea. A lot of people took Dinaz at face value. She was so ahead of her time. Maybe in 100 years they'll get it, and then put Dinaz on a 5 dollar bill. Dinaz at face value is still fierce, don't get me wrong. But if you really knew her, you saw her sneaky little ways in everything she did. Secret meanings and messages, clandestine histories/dramas/sex lives, and subliminal and/or subconscious symbols were omnipresent."

"Not many people know about her drawings, but I think they were some of her best works. Most were lost in the fire. She was always pulling out a new work, then loosing it or throwing it on the floor. Sometimes, I though it was the rush of creative inspiration, and not the creation itself that mattered to her."

"She was the first fashion mogul to live in outer space."

"Per$ia Hilton: Iran's Hottest Sexport"

"She always told me that she wished she'd been a dancer. She just loved to dance. She loved to express herself."

"Dinaz was one smart cookie. Her IQ was never measured, but I'd be surprised if it came back beyond measurable genius. She never opened her mouth, never shared her genius."

Dinaz

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mottos

hostility is the opposite of accommodating
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As a child, I always wanted to write a book called: Everything You Need to Know About Life You Learned From Darrin Goodness. I thought about it so much, and envisioned it. Now I realized I've already done that through this very medium- dgoodness.blogspot.com!

It really doesn't look like what you think it would, but it always happens :D

blast from the past

http://community.livejournal.com/hot_pants_crew/profile

I made this a while ago, there's a pic of me in hotpants!

Wow, this really takes me back. I'm so glad I don't live in the mission anymore.

mottos

Subject WWJJD?
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 02:51
What Would Jenna Jameson Do?

What Would Darrin Goodness Do?

What Would D$KNY Do?

What Would Lauren Devine Do?

What Would Lance Bass Do?

omg wtf

My whole life, I have had an affinity for animals. The first thing I ever wanted to be was a marine biologist, and that was from a very young age. I always knew I was destined to do great things, that's not what this blog is about.

Cetaceans and pinnepeds are my favorite animals. I've always liked dogs and cats, they just don't get me super excited. I'm also a big fan of sloths, sea otters (I don't know if they fall under pinnepedia or not), and umm, hairless rats? Maybe not.

Anyway, as long as I'm typing about animals-

In other news, 2 days ago Dinaz told me a story about how my old room mate jerked off a dog! Initially, I got a little flustered, interjecting, "OMG WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THIS YEARS AGO?!"

I got a little bit frustrated because she "couldn't remember the details."

"Dinaz, you don't forget details like that!!!" I exclaimed passionately. "Whose dog was it?" was my next and most pressing question. I still don't have an answer.

I don't know. There are some things even I won't do.

For the Love of Dolly

Current mood: inspired

I don't care if you don't believe me, what I'm typing is the truth.

My grandma happens to be close personal friends with somebody in Dolly Parton's inner circle. Who? It's Dolly Parton's personal assistant. My grandma and her friend grew up New York, just like all my family (me and my little brother are first generation Californian). There's a cool secret I will reveal in the first sentence of the next paragraph. We all know how Dolly Parton and Oprah are the 2 richest entertainers (in the world), right?? Well, Dolly Parton's personal assistant of many decades happens to be a FEMALE TO MALE transsexual who transitioned back in the 50's. He has large, thick, shoulders, a full beard. From the looks of it, you would never know. The only time I ever really could tell was when I listened to friendly voice mails he left on my grandma's answering machine. In many ways, I thought his ability to "pass" must have made him happy in life; like most trannies, he has been single his whole life.

Dolly Parton is a lesbian. It's a secret she's held onto her entire life, and she only tells other gay people because she knows her audience is mostly redneck pieces of shit and white trash. Oh wait, aren't those the same things? I respect her will to contain her secret, more than anything. I guess not everyone has a problem with "kissing and telling" the way I do. Anyways, Dolly Parton grew up in a totally different time. I can't imagine how hard the choices in her life must have been; I personally respect her reasons for remaining closeted. I love how she realized pretty fucking quick how if she was to femme it up, nobody would talk shit. Way to work the system Dolly!

Can I take a minute to get out in the open the face that I love Dolly Parton with all my heart? She has inspired millions of people with her self-made rags to riches story. She'll be an icon for many generations to come, I'm sure.

I find it ironic yet comforting how the 2 richest entertainers happen to be a black woman, and a lesbian. Anything really is possible int his world! They inspire me to do whatever it takes to achieve all my goals, and continue to dream as big as I possibly can. If you watch anything behind the scenes with Dolly SUCH AS For the Love of Dolly (a documentary about her on logo) they show her female lover- a nerdy looking white woman with very short hair and glasses. Dolly has had her sham marriage with a man for many decades, but that like so many other things, is just another cover up.

I'm probably going to copy and paste this blog into DIFFERENT PLACES, because I've been meaning to type this story for so long. When I was a small child, my grandma and mom took me to Disneyland. Or it might have been Disney world, I was under 5 (just a baby whore at this point in my lyfe), but I STILL REMEMBER A LOT, probably because I happen to have a genius level I.Q. that has a tendency to RISE @ a RATE of about 2 points per year. I remember the flight was a small airplane that only sat 20 people or less. It was so much fun flying through a cloud in a plane that small! newayz...

What do I remember about Dolly? Well, I never got to meet her, but I did get to stay in her house in L.A. AND ride in her limo all over town for 4-5 days. Her personal assistant was so sweet to me, he'd pick me up all the time and throw me in the air and catch me (which I loved because I was a little kid). He didn't hesitate to go on rides with me, and he was with me when I got the mickey mouse ears with "Darrin" embroidered on the back. He was the first tranny I ever met; I didn't find out he was a tranny until my early teens. Why is blogger underlying tranny in red? It doesn't recognize that that tranny is a word- another sign of American culture's futile attempt to render trans people invisible.

Did I ever mention that TRANSSEXUALS have the HIGHEST RATE of UNEMPLOYMENT, MORE than ANY other minority? I learned it in an LGBT Studies Class at SFSU. Again, blogger underlined LGBT in red, trying to tell me it's not a word. L.G.B.T. Oh wait, maybe I have to put periods between the letters...

What is the most interesting thing I remember? He had 2 cats called THE NINJA TURTLE CATS who pooped and peed in a toilet, instead of a litter box- I'm so not kidding, it blows my mind to this very day.

I'll always love Dolly. That's why I have her autograph, so I can look at her face as a constant reminder of my dreams and goals, and know that they will come true if I make it happen. My coat of many colors...

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[06 Dec 2002|02:31pm]
Hi, I just finished my registration. I'm very excite beccause if it all goes well I wont have class till 10:00 on Monday and Wednesday, and not till 12:35 on tuesday and thursday. A small problem, I will be in class til 9:45 at night on Thursdays, clubbing confliction. Yesterday was one of the best dance parties of all time. Darrin and Mickey were dressed as pirates, I was an elektrogoth in a techno skirt and Leslie was 80's MILF. We all looked hot as hell and we proved it. Great dancing. On our drive home Darrin rode in the trunk because there were eight people in some fourdoor sedan. It was trey bien. The only thing that could make life better would be vegan nachos mmmmmmnnm. Im talking with Brandon right now, my room-mate. Hes way cool we are discussing racial tension, and then how girls prefer guys with accents. We always have damn good conversation.

Im doing good, Love you -pillowboy-

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[03 Dec 2002|11:09pm]
HI I JUST WENT FOR A WALK TODAY WITH DARRIN GOODNESS. THAT WAS GOOD, ITS GOOD TO MOVE AROUND THAT WAY YOUR MUSCLES DONT ATROPHY. I WAS WATCHING THE OSBOURNES WITH LESLIE AS OF A SECOND AGO. ITS IRONIC I'VE CONCLUDED. PEOPLE ARE SO OBSESSED WITH REALITY TV, IT'S REALITY. I THINK PEOPLE ARE OBSESSED WITH TV THAT IS MORE LIKE REAL LIFE. FOR EXAMPLE FRIENDS, SEINFELD, COSBYS, CHEERS, THESE WERE JUST COMEDY IN MUNDANE LIFE. NOW THE REAL WORLD AND OTHER REALITY SHOWS, ARE GETTING "CLOSER" TO REAL LIFE. I GET COMPLETELY SUCKED INTO THE TV. BUT IF WE ARE ABSORBED WITH OTHER PEOPLES REAL LIVES, MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST LIVE OUR OWN. TODAY I WENT ON A THRIFT ADVENTURE WITH LESLIE. GOD THAT GIRL IS LIKE MY IDOL; NO BUT I DEFINITELY DO ADMIRE HER. WALKED AROUND, CAME UP WITH SOME GOOD IDEAS- GOT A HEAD START ON X-MAS. VEGAN NACHOS ARE THE GREATEST EVER! DARRIN GOODNESS AND I HAVE DISCUSSED THEIR MASS APPEAL AND AGREE THAT VEGAN NACHOS ARE GOOD TO THE CORE.

I LOVE YOU -pillowboy-

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A list to prove sanity [12 Nov 2002|04:16am]
Umm. .. it's so like four something in the morning; I am like crazy or something. I will be in fashion analysis at eight as usual. Life has been unstructured and as messy as my emotional self lately. Heres a list that I can check for tomorrow and for you to enjoy.

1Fashion Analysis
2Talk to Alex(about my sensitive bitch issues)
3Get some sleep
4follow a nutritious way eating
5Call that cool girl- Sailor
6study for fashion test on Thursday
7Possibly go on Darin's adventure
8Invite someone to eat lunch in the future
9Get books for my persuasive speech project
10decide what the hell I'll speel about
11trip? is it on?
12talk to carisa, my emotional mess counterpart
13relax dont be such a fuckin freak

Love you all- even in the early morning -pillowboy-

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SO mucH [10 Nov 2002|04:16pm]
Yesterday I went to Jazmine's DJ event. It was really the Gay Shame dance part in disguise.

Before getting to this point I awoke up before the Dining Center opened. I fussed around quietly- careful not to awake Leslie Slokavich my weekend roommate. Found something to wear and went to eat. When I came back Leslie vanished and I played guitar. Did some homework; no not really. Just did some yoga etc. Made plans to go to buena vista; which was a ploy to go to a pet store. Alright. Put on white eye shadow under my eyes- "wow Im a fuckin robot," I said to the mirror. went on several buses and walked many streets. When we actually arrived at the pet store it was a veterinarian or something of the sort. We walked from the mission to the Castro. We had dinner at a Mexican grill; it was pretty good. We ate in front of the window outlooking into the eyes of twinkbutthunters. Darrin was right there looking out eating, like it was a movie or dinner theater. I had to fix my hair several times yesterday..... Hmmmf. I did cut my hair; or I should say Darrin did a fabu job. Fabu, I actually have bangs- can't decide if I look Ladytron or If I look like Dum and Dummer. As If I hadn't had enough fun we came to the doorms 8:30 had an hour and a half to change and GO to the partay. We arrived, leslie looked way fashion forward; which totally fit. It was a really artsy crowd. We came in upon a theatrical performance of a sort. I don't know; it involved stripping lesbians on stilts- one of which was wearing leather and a wheel. There was a prize give away which included a refurbished bike and dildos. Danced..... then danced. I felt free with these people; anything I could do that was unnormal would've been seen as creativity. So I danced weird as usual. There were some cute guys, but I had this feeling they were all crack sluts anyway. My favorite part of the night besides Darrin getting careening head first into a piss stained mattress, while getting humped by the lovely Jazzman; was after the party. It was freezing cold and we went at first to look for a Denny's. I guess we sobered up from those intoxicating endorphins cuz someone piped up; "thats over five miles from here." So we went to 711 which was all of two blocks. What a magical place, I mean a place to get your grub on 24/7. Had a lot of sugar but Im OK, Im just fine. We came back to the party house- realizing we had 4 hours or so in the freezing cold- if we waited for the bart. Didn't really sleep til 10:00 this morning. It was all so good. THANKYOU

LOVE YOU ALL, -pillowboy-

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So far [06 Nov 2002|11:31pm]
Hi im currently writing from the lounge in mary park-actually the nearby computer lab. Today I walked to West Portal after my classes. That was about a two and a half mile distance. It felt good; I mean what other physical activity am I gonna do. I love feeling independent; I love to feel calm and carefree. I hate solidarity. Every moment Im alone without some major work or distraction I find myself quickly becoming sad or apathetic. I hate that- don't be such a fucking blade in the wind, don't just fall over. I am after all not going home; not this weekend, it's all good. I just ate trail mix with m&ms and a bag of rolled gold- musn't eat so late at night lest I become fat. I played guitar for over an hour- saw the video for Ladytron, inspirational. I don't know what to say really, I want to go back and hang a bit with Leslie and Darrin.

Love you all -pillowboy-

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little to say [05 Nov 2002|10:54am]
Yesterday I walked to Borders again and listened to music for about two or so hours. I discovered such good things. Thats the problem with me I like beauty in all facets; I want to be apart of it all. I have become increasingly become aware of my limited and dwindling cash. Tori Amos tickets 50.50, Dinner 12.34, thrift spree with Darrin Goodness, PRICELESS. I need a job, I'm way lazy. Been playing guitar; I am going to be a rock-star even if I'm an apathetic log.

LOVE you all


-PILLOWBOY-

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good morning : ) [04 Nov 2002|06:32am]
[ mood | strange, tired awake, horny ]
[ music | Amy typing an all-nighter in the Comp. Lab ]

GOOD MORNING, it is 6:30 or so in the morning and I have just woken up from a three hour sleep cycle. It's true three hours makes one feel beter than four. I know that doesn't make sense- our sleep cycles occur in three hour periods so I made a cycle, it's better. Yesterday was a good day. I'm so sick of just lounging around; I just want to get up and go somewhere or do something- not homework- I never have enough enthusiasm for that bull-shit. Yesterday I up and walked to Border's Book Store; It's true what Darrin says, "Things that aren't special are the best." Borders of course is generic but commercial and comforting in the independent SF area. Fred Meyers is the best. So I walked there and listened to some music and walked back to meet Darrin at 4:15. We were off to the Castro for a Gay Shame Protest. Gay Shame is a group of the Gays; who are disatisfied with- the way gays are portrayed in the media, hate crime, GLBT issues, and everything. We did a small march carrying signs of Qwen Arujo and Jihad- Jihad sounds like holy war. We were instructed to shake our noise makers- I know, I was like what does that mean; not that kinda volunteer work again!- then some like guy gives us like beans in a palmolive bottle. When I shook the noise maker I could only imagine how much it looked like an air hand job- we're talking extreme mime here. So we were told to make even more noise so I barked like a chihuahua- did I mention we were carrying flaming torches through the streets. It was insane. The leader was a Traci Chapman of a man; who would take his megaphone and boo like a mechanical haloween gimick. It was honestly a hilarious thing; a good cause lost to tastelessness, tactless. I got a natural high from the yelling- yay for animalism. Gay Shame was the most fashion forward, interesting looking group ever- they were fabulous. Some cute guys too- theres always something wrong however; relationships are like thrift store finds something's fucked, be it a snag or over embellishment. The people there were way angry and scary in there unapologetic way; the guys were a new breed of gay- a strange encounter to the dar; must update system. After that rousing experience we went to Jazmines' friend's house. At Whitney's we watched episodes of QAF( Queer AS FuCK)- super gay day. Came home late. There is talk that possibly Friday I may be making a guest appearance in LA- hope it works out.

LOve you all -Pilowboy-

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Halloween [02 Nov 2002|09:52pm

Halloween [02 Nov 2002|09:52pm]
Hey, it's already saturday; I guess I've been too party'ed out do write. Halloween was an awesome experience, it had everything. I wore a corsette, black angel wings and horns; under my corset I had a white dress shirt. It sounds goofy; but think more chic. I did my makeup heavy liner with cat ends and a dot of glitter at my cornea. I overspent completely- wings, corsette, horns. I however really liked my costume this year; every year before has always been so so. After the fussing process we made it toward Castro. It was the end of the world. There was a boy at the crowded station who was pantsing himself and wanking the doodle at passing cars. Cars honked at the costumed masses- all from our school. The crowd cheered the wild exhibitionist and we were then headed on the muni M line. To the Castro we made our pagan pilgramage. It was butts to nuts crowded in there. The windows steemed with the sweating of our bodies; children scrawled help me on the steamy windows. I actually had my ass near falling into this girls lap. There was no room. Ricky,a psycho dinosaur crowd surfed and then proceeded to nose dive into the dirty muni floor. The ganja filled the moist sweltering air. "Get me out of here; no seriously were like stuck, like were gonna die under ground, ughhhh," I freaked. Well I cannot even describe the surreal nature and horror of the bus. We exited on Castro, only to be dumped into a crowd of 300,000 people. If there was ever a time for biological warfare that was the place. Crazy night-didn't see but by friends accounts- stabbings, people having anal sex in the middle of the road, end of the world. The crowd was over powering; I was a nameless face being pushed like a prisoner by the pushers and shovers. We left to Pop Scenes because it was too much. Pop Scenes was so great because it was halloween- I actually had room to dance. Violent crazy dramatic dancing on Halloween. That night we came back like war victims. Beaten up, older, out of the wood work like Michael Jackson's Thriller Zombies. Happy happy Halloween.

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[30 Oct 2002|01:05am]
Today was not memorable for some reason. I hung out with this girl Lauryn, whom I had met at the Club Pop Scenes. She seems way nice and cool; I don't know, It's hard to get a sense off a person when your walls are so high. My defenses were up all day until come eight or so. I got 5 or so hours two days in a row so Im a little sleepy. It's good to be sleepy your walls fall down and it's a lot easier. I can talk to people when Im near falling over, I guess. Got Halloween costume. Tori Amos does drugs; I don't know If she's my heroe so much anymore. I just talked to this guy who'm I had given my number to, about three weeks ago or so. He never called; but both times I've talked to him I've actually had some good conversations. He isn't that great but companionship is a human function completely not being filled right now. When I talked to him I got way nervous, why? I don't know why; he isn't as cute as I remember him being. He is more efeminate, has large ears, mild acne and makes good conversation. Whatever.

GOODnight Love Pillowboy

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in the cafe [28 Oct 2002|05:00pm]
Hi pillowboy here, Im eating for like the fifth time today. Non-stop fun; the cold weather or something has a psychological effect upon me and I just keep on salivating all day long and eating all day. The point of fullness is quite hard to reach, I feel food raunchy. Its all empty and it's all cloudy. I feel snug comfortable now, outside it's really pricking cold. My room-mate and his girlfriend were snuggling in their bed. I know it's sweet and I'd probably wan't to do the same. Snuggling, that stuff is so private; every time I walk into my own room I feel intrusive. I think I'd feel better walking in on them having let's say sex if they do; than walking in on the endless spoonage. It's cold, cloudy, theres a hot guy walking around in the cafe; he's wearing some raver bracelets. I don't know

Later, Love pillowboy

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now i am . . . . [28 Oct 2002|12:42am]
[ mood | wahhhh ]
[ music | silence ]

Today I read a book entitled, "Democracy for the Few," It made me totally depressed. If you've read any of my other journals you're proably realizing a trend here. My class introduction into world affairs is eye opening but majorly depressing. The book just got me picking away at everything, life just seemed like such a rasp of what it's supposed to be. With everything going on, impending war etc. We are starved of our primary components, and it seems in this structured world we are looking for the pieces. Like looking for bits of useful garbage we are reclaiming the past, reclaiming happines. I don't know its sad how something like that can totally throw you off track. It's my fault too, I've been perpetuating the negativity. I refused to say HI to people today. I'm sick of all the half smirked smiles, more so of fear than of genuine friendship. On my floor Im such a wonder fag, I swear people want to be my friend just cuz I'm gay or something. Will they understand when they realize Im more than a smiling single FAG. Im synical, mean, shy, fucking emotional mess sometimes. Im sick of all the fakeness, dsjkfj;asfadfajdf. Missed some people today, they were off elswhere. Sorry for this EMO, crap, patch, anilingus, hot lunch munching, downtrodden, waste of space, ferocious vag monster, poo font, beef streugenaf, borshk, mother bleeping, bastard, hot noodle pesto. piece of crap, felatiemon, poon tang, rim job, snorkle, cream corn, ram blaster, hamster, crap crock of shit; I have subjected you to. Still Love you all

Love Pillowboy

today is a day [20 Oct 2002|02:30am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | quiet whispers of people ]

First of all I'd like to say Margaret Cho was a blast; I guess I totally went amnesiac in my journal because of yesterdays sloshing. It was fun seeing Megan and meeting her friends from home, new home that is. We are from the same city, Westlake Village. It was so fun, Margaret looked like a drag-queen, is that a hyphenated word? No she loves her gays, to the point where she is now a woman playing a man pretending to be a woman. Today I had lunch or brunch with pals, then I went and attempted to do work. After dinner at 6:00 o'clock sharp, I went with Darrin and friends to go thrifting. Thrifting is it's own verb. It was fun and I got some clothes. we'd get into a store and the owner would talk over the speaker, "We will be closing in 15 minutes." It felt like that shopping game show; I was all trying to find cute clothes in under 15, it was cool. Can I just say people are incohesive. Incohesive; like no one ever wants to do the same thing at the same time. So I waited to see what people were going to do and consequently, nothing happened. I blame everything on temperal mood disorder. The first day it got cloudy this week every other person was dealing with minor depression; myself included. Theres something important to say but I forgot. I shall ramble. I care to much what you think. You know who you are, so be warned. I want a boyfriend, I desire macaroni necklaces(see S. Park), consistency, spoonage, secrets, friendship and sex. Oh well, I say like Eeore. Today is the day that I will start to grow up, all innocence is lost(JK), just being fatal. Yay. Well top of the muffin to ya.

Love you, Love you journal. Pillow boy

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experience [19 Oct 2002|04:09am]
Sorry I neglected to write about Thursday's events. I went to Pop Scenes. Pop Scenes is a dance club I like to go to on Thursday. They play eighties, riot girl, elektro clash etc music. I feel so old and experienced. I felt sick on the way to Pop Scenes but I willed myself to health. I started meditating right there on the muni station; it must have worked because Darrin said I was generating heat. I got in Pop Scenes and felt so gross, but with the power of music I felt alive yet again. I danced well with alot of energy, a girl there said, "you're the best dancer, but don't tell anyone." After the club, friends and I went to a gas station for food. I got a huge bag of nuts and a slab of dark chocolate. It was so good. Today I also ate a lot of chocolate from Sees' candy. Perceviering through sickness to dance four or so hours makes me seem old to myself. Today I feel older still, yet adventurous. I snuck into The Bar on Castro. I completely just ran in while the bouncer was yelling stop, stop. I waited in the dark smoking area for ten minutes or so. Oh I went with Darrin and Ivan, Ivan is such a cute ideal. I always thought Ivan was a slut, but no no. I had a margarita and a few sips of what is known as a gin and tonic. Apparently I got drunk. I was experiencing faders, dizziness and giddiness. I'll be honest It was enjoyable but not something I will do again. I was surprised how outgoing I was being. I started dancing really enthusiastically, while no one else was dancing. I was a responsible drunk; I made sure as to drink plenty of water and to eat a bit shortly after. Can I just tell you how Asian I am; I mean one drink and I was fucked up, one more and Lights'ed be out. So now I feel old and experienced, I hope this helps me out somehow. Oh gournal I don't feel like talking right now but I love you.

-Pillowboy-

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0/11 [12 Oct 2002|02:11am]
[ mood | fulfilled,good tired ]

Today i triumphed, I conquered the public transportation system and made it to the DMV. It's sad what a good feeling I got finding my way there alone. At the DMV I had to wait oh, a couple of hours I made it productive. I read and observed. I noticed a man sexy in a stereotypical way. I caught his eye, what a fag, he was all wonderin why I wasnt all oogling him. He had this irratating air abou him, pretention, average sexiness, he fell into the gap and never escaped. Im gay but Im not like that, cruisy as to the point to look for a hot bottom at the local DMV. I came home felt completely good about making it back alive and went to dinner. I ate with Darrin, Justin, Eve and such, its so nice to eat meals with people. I always have fun talking to people, joking around etc. Eve is so fun, Justin too, I feel quite familial around them at times, smiles. I went to Samyah's concert, people on stage all had to dress in black, no other rules. It was so cool to see peoples own style transcending into something as formal and proffessional as a classical concert. It reminded me of an all black collection by some big designer. One girl was wearing a tight black t-shirt, a ruffly velvet 80's skirt and massive dreads to top it off. After the concert we went to coffee on church, Sparky's. On the way to the muni station we stopped at Justin's apartment, it was spacious and it had Ikea in it. Also I met Darrin's friends, Shakrah and Philip, they seem pretty nice and all. Coffee was good, I had a bundle of joy bouncing around with Samayah to the shop and back. I don't know what else to say, hope Im not being mean.

later sweet journal, love: Pillowboy

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c D-Na$$ty

homage to D-Na$ty
Current mood: grateful

I met D-Na$$ty in 2002 when I lived in the dorms, and she's stuck with me over time. Out of all the people I've ever met, she's had a lasting affect on my life. She always has a positive attitide, and she's such a sweet girl! She's always down for anything fun, and she's never one to bring the drama. Although she can be reserved at times, she always has so many good ideas and interesting viewpoints on a very wide variety of subjects. In addition to being a desinger, she also knows a lot about science and technology, and it seems to me like she's always got something up her sleeve, which I appreciate. I love people who keep my interest. Basically, I'm thankful for having her as a friend. 2008 is your year, D$KNY. It's weird for me to think that I FORCED Dinaz into myspace all those years ago, and I even went on her profile and updated it for her in the early days. lol, it's like I'm always getting her into something<333








To all earthlinks present, I extend a colloquial "greetings" from the cavernous depths of 2D graphical representation. My name is Binex.
I emerged from the abyss when the rising hexagram of the I Ching coincided with the Binary system and was scanned in sequence in a barcode. Now I am confined to this digital purgatory territory until "exhaustion", the next hexagram in the cycle, is scanned in sequence, at which time I will harken back to the abyss.
Oh, wait I have e-mail. Excuse me, I need to take this. No seriously I have no choice. (distorted) Dear monetarily valued internet space time share holder. Our Tracking records database shows that your UPC codes have qualified you for this complementary pair of virtual 3D glasses.
Well I guess I should try them on since they're free and all. Maybe I could regift or something... wait a nanosecond, whats going onnnnnn....
"metaphysical aura orifice"
Wow, they really do virtually work. I guess, anyway. This is kind of a bummer, real life isn't all it's cracked out to be. I'm all puffy, not to mention way less attractive, and I won't get back to the abyss if I'm not there when the big scan is to take place. It seems the only way out is to be rendered as an internet persona by a depressive alcoholic narcissist. But where would I find such a tool? Maybe on Myspace...

survey

What is your idea of "perfect" happiness?
Going into outer space, becoming famous in the scientific community, infinite love and wealth. Until that happens, I'm not happy.

What is your greatest fear?
FAILURE!!!!!!!!!

Which historical figure do you most identify with?
Jenna Jameson

Which living person do you most admire?
right now- Sammy Case

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
I love it

What is your greatest extravagance?
drugs

What is your favorite journey?
identity

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
humility

What do you dislike most about your appearance?
face

Which living person do you most despise?
G.W. Bush

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
Fake it till u make it! *jus chillin* and bitch ain't give a shit

What or who is the greatest love of your life?
who- William West Seegmiller III what- Biology: The Study of Life

Which talent would you most like to have?
computer skills!

What is your current state of mind?
optimistic

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
MY DEGREE OF FAME

If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?
I wish my mom and dad were dead

What do you consider your greatest achievement?
camera time @ the singularity summit & my good grades

If you could choose what to come back as, what would it be?
the Dalai Lama

What is your most treasured possession?
an emerald ring my grandma gave me as a small child

Where would you like to live?
Australia or New Zealand

What is your favorite occupation?
doctor, lawyer

What is your most marked characteristic?
last name

What is the quality you most like in a man?
HIS SMIRK!!! that means he's a guy I can roll with

What do you most value in your friends?
intelligence, will, and status. Basically, smart, strong, intuitive people get and keep my attention over time.

Who are your favorite writers?
Darrin Eason Goodness, Angela Bacca

Who is your favorite hero of fiction?
Aeon Flux

Who are your heroes in real life?
Dinaz, Hilary, Job, Jay, Chris Goodness, West

What is it that you most dislike?
christians and republicans

How would you like to die?
I'd rather have stem cell infusions and live long enough to have my brain implanted in a robot body that ALREADY HAS BEEN INVENTED IN 2006 by google

What is your motto?
fake it till you make it

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Subject http://www.bmezine.com/news/pubring/20070917.html
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 09:49
http://www.bmezine.com/news/pubring/20070904.html
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Subject intense!
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 09:25
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jimmy_Edgar
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Subject island biogeography
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 07:48
Basically, I'm giving every1 6 months of evolutionary ecology in a paragraph (or 2).

Neways, today as I was walking by the NOW DRY puddle of blood on the street, it got my little brain to thinkin. Thinkin about pigeons.

I've had the pleasure of observing them for the past 5 years, ever since I moved to San Francisco. The populations change at an alarming rate- phenotype (and genotype). If any1 says that they don't believe in evolution, too bad, because I have observed it in the real world. Anyways, because of the fact that there are no resources to support life in the metropolitan area, animal evolution is now exactly like "island biogeography" because there are small "islands" here and there, and the islands are the only areas with resources- these are places such as backyards, parks, small patches of green, etc. There are also microislands- this could be a puddle, a single tree, a bunch of food garbage in a pile on the street, etc.

I like to observe birds, because other than water and rats, they are the biggest vector (vector in biology = a disease causing/spreading agent, different from a physics vector). I see small populations change so much. I feel like the salt n pepa pigeon might soon replace the standard pigeon- it has the dna of many types of pigeons- basically, it's a mutt like me! Did I mention that I happen to be BLACK and NATIVE AMERICAN and I LOVE not being white? Cause it's true.

Neways, As a result, the pigeon of the future will be stronger in the long term (resistant to more diseases, etc). This will be the case UNLESS there is a dramatic shift in the land, climate, etc, in which case the "ideal" will again change to match the environment.

Basically, I would call these thoughts "diffusion science" because I didn't do any active work in coming up with this shit- merely sat back and payed attention to my surrounding environment. Oh yeah, I did happen to get an A in Evolutionary Ecology, and I did remember the information on which I was tested ;P
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Subject Lance Bass
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:32
Why do I love him? Well, have you gone into outer space? For the sake of argument, I'm going to have to go ahead and type "no." Lance Bass has, and that's hot! Lance Bass for president- let's put him on the 5 dollar bill.

p.s. I think beautiful gay men should be on money, instead of slave owners. I mean, what kind of message is that sending anyways?
slave = dolla billz = sex work = whips = oldwhitemen = the south = pain = suffering = power? Also, if there's one thing I've learned about gay guys in my LONG 23 years on the face of this earth is that they will do JUST ABOUT ANYTHING for money, including sex work. Basically, ever gay man I've ever met has at one time or another, admitted to either doing porn in their past, ORRRRR having sex with daddies for money, myself included. LOL
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Subject myspace
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:28
I love myspace, because whenever I want, I can log off an NONE OF IT IS EVEN REAL. Also, I can delete my account whenever I want (I plan on it, if I feel like making another one I will) and still, none of it was even tangible.

I'm just practicing for when my brain gets plugged into a the internet.

Did I mention that I Love New York (2).

*jus chillin*
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Subject dreams
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:24
I'm really into lucid dreaming. I think I got too good at it. The past 2 nights I had really intense dreams, but it was 5 variations on the same dream, basically, the same theme over and over, and I did have nightmares the past 2 nights. It was all about my childhood.

Why can't I just have have 100% lucid sex dreams, like my friend who told me about lucid dreaming. I guess I have to work for it. Bummer!

Also, I snore and I grind me teeth something terrible. Mouth guards aren't enough. sumtimez get headaches.

I still have a runny nose. I hope it's not staph. I think it's just the cold weather. I want to move somewhere tropical, I want to sweat everyday. That would make me happy.
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Subject movies
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 13:48
Out In Nature















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Subject interests
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 11:03
betrayal, Debutante, fast cars, fast men, fast $, highlights, loyalty, power, tanning, wealth
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Subject Adam & Steve pt. 2
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 06:33
http://www.adamandstevemovie.com/
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Subject Adam & Steve
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 06:31
http://www.creativethriftshop.com/Artist%20Warehouse/images_gdlp/Gdlp_oasis.htm
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Subject thxgvng
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 19:29
..What am I thankful for?
My life, and my friends
My significant other
animals
calories
Persia Hilton: Iran's Hottest Sexport
Kimora Lee
sunny weather
the cartoon art museum
Tranny 911
The evolution of Gay Pimp's career on Logo (sucks how he got fat)
ummmm
420 Slut
privatized space exploration
OH YEAH
OSIRIS.COM is what I'm most thankful for.
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Subject story
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 19:13
Tonight in the tl I was walking home from an event with Dynatsy Ho, when a troubled upper class black man having a nervous breakdown came up to me and begged for help (he just got his car jacked today- "but everybody's kool"). Things like this always happen to me! D-Nasty thought he was sketchy and hence should be avoided, and looking back on it, he did keep taking out little notes he wrote to himself with arbitrary numbers all over in a hodge podge of information what would make sense only to the person who jotted it down. Maybe I seem like sum1 who could help? I'm totally clueless. I thought it was funny though. I love living in San Francisco, people are usually willing to chop it up.

Bums ask me for $ all the time too, I guess I appear to have a lot of money laying around or something.

Good bum stories I've collected:
The bum jerking off in a sleeping bag outside of Peet's Coffee
The legless bum who always slept outside of Peet's Coffee
+ way more from when I used to hang out at hippy hill all the time
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Subject 12:14
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 17:14
Right now I'm hanging out with D-Nasty. We walked to rainbow market and back this evening because we are hippies! Wait- Yippies? no- jk. newayz weird things of the day time:

Speaking of blood, today we saw a FATTY puddle on the street by my house. I took a picture of it on my camera phone. What's with all this blood all over the place? Seriously, If I had to estimate the volume I would say 1/2 to 3/4 of a cup of blood, in a puddle, and strewn about.

Also, my friend Hilary found $2.00 on the street in front of my house! Lucky. We got lunch at whole foods they had hella thanxgiving stuff out in the food bar.
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Subject http://www.singinst.org/blog/
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:47
it's good
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Subject science channel
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:33
I don't get it! I don't get any good educational tv! I'm not happy.
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Subject night out
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:22
SO,

I rode earlier on the 38. I was walking thru the tl (tenderloin) and I saw a creepy white guy walking at a brisk pace. As soon as he got about 10 feet from me, I could see that his face was COVERED in blood. his nervous blue eyes met mine for a split second, I'm sure my eyes told him everything. It was creepy!

After that, I followed the trail of blood for several blocks! so much blood! it was a sight to see.

newayz,

on my way home a creepy homeless sat behind me on the bus and was grunting and growling so much that I had to move! It really says something when it's barely 2 a.m. and the only person on the bus is me + 3 sleeping raggedy pant tramps.

Also, I saw this one guy I used to see all the time when I worked at peets 3rd/mission. He has white hair, a white beard, and he always wears a confederate flag ring. He is a real freaky daddy. One of my friends talked to him one time when they were tripping! omg that guy freaks me out so much- I've heard him speak.

thank buddha for all the freaks in SF!

sucks how I don't have a car.

Other weird stuff that's happened to me lately:
I've seen 3 shooting stars in the past month
I had more, but I forgot!


interests (recycled)
loyalty, betrayal, fast men, fast $, alfa romeo, Urban Studies, biotechnology, bioaugmentation, nitrogen cycles, Mars, Jupiter, corporate surveillance, gambling, prostitution, chemicals, affluence, highlights, tanning
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Subject http://thesisters.org/playfair.html
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 14:54
I thought this was kool :)
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Subject thesisters.org
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 14:36

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Subject (bio)augmentation @ osiris dot com
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 09:27
I have had the extreme pleasures to see bioaugmentation irl- my significant other West has had an infusion of stem cells through a research project called The Osiris Project that is currently treating Crohn's patients in San Francisco.

I love being able to observe this moment in history first hand- it's very exciting and inspiring!

There is a chance he received a placebo, but I don't think that is the case because I've seen his tissue rapidly heal over the course of a few days- basically months of work in an afternoon. He has "the flush" of someone who has received an infusion of stem cells.

Basically, stem cells could cure any disease, and they could also make people live forever! Well, in case you died in a global pandemic or from being hit by a car. Forever Young.

Did I fail mention that it MIGHT be wise to invest in this technology?


Living forever in my human body doesn't interest me. I want to have a robot body, connect my brain to the internet, becum a virus and, put my face on yr desktop! lol

Negative Side affects: moodiness, mood swings, and he smells like creamed corn so much, omg it comes out of his mouth (it's from a combo of hormones + more). These leave after 1-3 days.

I love research! It's so fun to see what improvements science can make on our lives and the world. It's interesting to observe this.
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Subject http://www.bio.davidson.edu/courses/genomics/2002/Pierce/gaygene.htm
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:20
the "gay" "gene(s)"
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Subject secret
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:06
You can have a body as good as me if you don't eat meat. I go through 6 months work out binges, and then long periods of laziness, but I swear I had muscles 3 months ago.

Neways, I'm really into isometric exercises. Rock Climbing is my fav, but I'll always be best at endurance types (long distance running). I need more cardio!!!

Not eating salt and sugar is another big one. Sugar addictions signal depression, salt addictions signal anxiety (I have a terrible salt addiction).

I'm trying to copy Amy Sedaris. Well, her writing style I mean 2 say.
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Subject http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rupaul
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:05
Thank you Rupaul, for everything you do for us.
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Subject weird a$$ day
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 07:55
So, today I left my house and was walking around downtown san francisco.

Anyways, first I stumbled upon an amazing business, and went inside and talked to the owner, etc. I really respect it, I'm going to write another blog about it in a hot minute. I even told the guy I was going to write a blog about it :)

Anyways, then I went to the flagship academy of sciences, and I talked to 2 fun young people who are just as into it as I am. My little scheme is going slowly, but it's going to work! I love the academy of sciences.

newayz,
on my way home, a really fukkin hot blond guy (basically, a perfect 10, no lie, with knuckle tats came up to me) and asked me in a foreign accent if I believed in god. I explained to him that I'm an atheist (because I've taken too many science classes, basically I'm too educated for that) and then I went on to explain that I borrow ideologies from Buddhism and Judaism, although I do happen to be interested in studying Hinduism. After that 20 second little story, he went on to ask me if I wanted to go study the bible with him, and if I knew other people who wanted to learn about it! I then explained to him that I only believe in myself, what ppl think is god exists in every1, and also, I've basically been able to go in a lab and play god in real life (IRL), and then I said good luck your little scheme.


I mean, I got that strange feeling inside my head that told me, "wtf, another creepy white "str8" guy is only trying to get me alone with him RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT in order to fuck me and then kill me (or kill me THEN fuck me). White guys are getting more an more desperate as their days come to a close. Their time is over...


Blond guys are hot, but I know they're 0% (ZERO PERCENT, ZERO POUR CENT en francais si vous ne pouvez pas le comprendre) intelligent. Blond guys were created to be my sex slaves! Basically, I see them as sex objects- everybody should, that's all they're good for anyways ;)

- love, Darrin Goodness
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Subject http://greencitizen.com
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 07:12
THIS IS AMAZING, AND IT'S GOING TO BE HUGE IN THE FUTURE. It's always a good idea to hop on top of a dick before it becums 2 big and then grows a HUGE ego, if you know what I'm saying.

I love it! http://greencitizen.com. every1 should visit http://greencitizen.com at least one time! http://greencitizen.com is doing something positive for the world, hence all of the people who live in it. http://greencitizen.com would be a wise investment if you have some money laying around.
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Subject I Love New York 2
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 05:00
I feel like it's only a matter of time before she becomes way more famous. I've always "had love" 4 New York, she's an inspiration to us all. I think it's cool how she grew up in the same part of new york as my parents, her mom teaches at syracuse university! I love how in the last episode I saw she was promoting sexual health, and she always displays her self esteem in an assertive manner. She clearly ended up using her degree in sociology effectively, because now she has been immortalized forever not only as a positive role model, but she has had a major social impact on all the people who willingly watch her life on cable tv.

"I'm a strong black woman, and I need a man who is able to handle that!"

I'd like to add that the Salt N Pepa show just came on Vh1. Very Necessary was the first cassette I ever bought (at target). However, the first CD I bought was No Doubt, Tragic Kingdom (I always played it on the computer). At that time, I was so amazed that a music CD could be played on a computer wtf!
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Subject http://www.daiso-sangyo.co.jp/english/
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:18
store review Diaso-

I've been going to this amazing store lately, and more and more of then are starting to show up in the bay area. It's a japanese dollar store called daiso, and I love it so much! I think because of the fact that it comes from a Buddhist culture all of the items are multifunctional, or at least functional.
newayz
they have so much cool shit- stones, ashtrays, false eyelashes, dishes, school supplies, drug bags, etc- kind of a hodge podge of everything, and you need it all!
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Subject http://electricsheep.org/
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:17
this is the only screen saver I've ever cared about.
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Subject according to the president of iran
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:00
gay people don't exist in iran (according to CBS news on LOGO). Creepy! All of a sudden I no longer give a fuck about that cuntry. I hope ppl aren't getting killed in the streets. oh wait, that's been a reality this whole time. sucks how iran is about to get royally fucked up by the united states in the near future- OMG they should make a reality tv show about it! I've seriously been waiting my whole life to see humans be executed/maimed on camera- fun for the whole family :)
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Subject I fu*ked another bitch, talk sh*t if u want 2

Subject copy/paste poetry
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 03:28
Forgo the ebullition
could not contain the premonition
Once forgotten, twice bitten
abolitionism spittin
pickin cotton, finger lickin
spin the record, change the linens
white, unlike truth, lies all forgiven.
-Dinaz Sandal Kardooni '07
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last week blog

sun(less)day gx tx chxrch

I just woke up. Well, I've been awake for a few hours, but I was doing stuff.

newayz,
it's cold and cloudy downtown. This is the kind of weather that makes me want to shrivel up into a ball, hide in a small room, and never cum out.

How the fuck did I get here? I grew up in a place where for half the year it was 72 degrees, light breeze, no clouds. Then, over the summer, maybe 2 months of 80s or 90s, and one month of 100s. I'm all about it! The coldest t ever got was 45 degrees? maybe not even that cold. I always say that the weather is what will make me eventually leave san francisco, and I'm not lying about it. I get seasonal affect disorder something terrible (I love blaming problems on other things besides myself).

newayz,
it's sunday! time to go to church. JUST KIDDING. I was raised methodist, an although I've been so educated in science I know that being an atheist what's really going on, I "don't mind" people who are "good christians" lol I'm talking about them like they are something real. My mom forced me to go, I resisted every time. My grandma is catholic, and she tried to take me to a catholic church one time when I was a small child.

I burst into tears, and I wouldn't stop until she took me out- I was only in one for about 5 mins. I could tell that there were people there who wanted to hurt me- it's not hard a child to follow their intuition. My thought is that catholicism is on par with death cults.

p.s. I love Jews and Jewesses.

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November 17, 2007 - Saturday


why I love Britney Spears

A lot of people have been focusing on the negative aspects of B. Spears lately, and I don't really understand why. She's entertained millions, lost her virginity in front of our eyes, talked to young girls (who aren't yet women) about how to look sexy 4 guys- so basically she has inspired all of us.

Let's try to gain some insight into Britney Spears a little bit. I thought she was from Louisiana- basically she's from the south. I have to go out on a limb, and assume that Kentwood is not a large city, because I never heard of it before. So- she's from a small town, in the south. I assume that because she entered the business early in life, she either had some type of "desire to whore herself," unless it was her parents who pressured her into the entertainment industry. So- she's "that kind" of personality, coupled with being from a small town, in the South.

OF COURSE a girl like that is going to have 2 (two) babies in her early 20s. Of course a girl like that is going to think that Kevin Federline is marriage material. of course a girl like that is going to make pro g w bush and pro war statements. And then, of course a girl like that is going to have her feelings hurt (and spiral out of control) when everyone always talks about how stupid, crazy, and fucked up she is- wouldn't you? So she has a drug problem! Big fucking deal, who hasn't these days. I just read a quote from Reba and she says we should "pray for Britney." At least sum1 wants to help her instead of making her look like a damn fool.

Her new album is amazing- it too can be dissected. She basically has a "Gwen Stefani" song, a "Justin Timberlake" song, a "Timbaland" song etc. She referenced her contemporaries- what a genius. I don't understand why everyone dislikes her so much, psychologically speaking, she's one of the easiest types to dissect.

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websites visited today:

http://www.amonhotep.com/- They sell The Real Eve on DVD



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Pussy Power, we in cunt-troll! (trina)
Current mood: weird

Just a precautionary note: This blog is long-winded as fuck so just walk away now if you're already over it...

At the risk of carrying the torch for the dyke brigades, I feel the need to divulge some "Goddess Epiphanies" I retained while writing a term paper. The Greeks, often cited as the founders of Western Civilization, were actually rooted in the earlier Mycenean Civilization, who were merely the mainland second fiddle to the Cretean Islandic population known as the Minoans. They, although non-militaristic, still had economic naval control of the mainland, and although the society was stratified, there was no class struggle, no political aggrandizement. (The only known figure at this time was King Minos, although it is still debatable whether "Minos" was a single person or synonymous with King in general. --The myth of Minos originated in Greece, involving Zues disguising as a bull and impregnating Minos' wife Persephae, who gave birth to a freakish half-man/ half-bull who dwelled in the labyrinth under the Minoan Palace of Knossos and fed off prisoners. This might have just been Mycenean resentment of naval rule. The Minoans were also referred to as the Lost City of Atlantis in Greek mythology. Why Zues had to disguise himself in the first place, and as a bull no less... What a sick fucking world, am I right?) Although peace-loving, there were elements of cannibalism and human sacrifice, but even the preistesses were known to offer themselves, which gives way to the second theme:

The society may or may not have been matrilineal, and there were, in all fairness, preists and kings. However, they were often depicted in drag during ceremonies (a possible Syrian influence) and were more or less pawns of the High Preistess, who became the epiphany of the Mother Goddess through ritualistic drug-induced ecstatic dancing. She was featured prominently, decked out head to toe in gold jewelry, with ginormous exposed breastage, a girdled wasp waist, and a flounced skirt, and guess what? It wasn't slutty, it was divine. The drugs of choice were alcohol and opium, as indicated by the Poppy Goddess. Most notable is the Procession Fresco, depicting two LONG lines of men offering gifts and adulations to the Preistess. (Can I get an Amen?)

The living was communal. The men would be out at sea most of the time while the women held down the fort, and apparently no one knew at this point the questionable role men played in child conception, which explains the heightened female status, although once again, men were still considered equal. The civilization held up for six centuries; it even withstood a series of natural disasters (mainly earthquakes), but it was upon the eruption of Mount Thera in 1650 BCE that the Myceneans decided to invade and kick them while they were down. (How's that for a sucker punch, eh?) Shortly thereafter was a massive cultural decline. Archeological evidence shows only two buildings rebuilt, and art and pottery examples were merely cruder versions of that of the Minoans. The Myceneans gave way to the Greeks. All the Minoan Goddesses were adopted but made Zeus- centric, although Ria, mother of Zues, is said to be the Original Mother Goddess. Women were confined indoors all their lives and sold as property to their husbands, usually at 13. Only hookers could venture outdoors.

What I suggest is that it's high time women (and empathetic men) take back the power: beat the patriarchy at its own game. Should there be the unfortunate event of a terrorist attack or a natural disaster; although it is an overall tragedy and victimizes many innocent people, one could treat it as a swift kick in the balls (which could temporarily paralyze ANY man; Bitch ain't give a shit who the fuck they think they is!) to the present socioeconomic hegemony at large, and promptly go for the jugular-- what this could in fact be the analog of is, I guess, another long-ass blog of the future. Thx 4 holding out this long. Until next time, Sweet Babies!

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November 15, 2007 - Thursday


las vegas is better than L.A.

So- I've always loved Los Angeles from afar- basically I always knew that it's a world totally separate and removed from norcal.

NEWAYS,

I went to Vegas for the first time ( for $oloterre's 22nd bday!)

NEWAYZ-

It's way cooler than L.A.- L.A. is basically a HUGE shit hole that pretends to be glam and fab- Vegas is a pseudoshithole, that really happens to be glam and fab.

Not like I hate L.A. I mean, basically, I still think L.A. is cool- I probably always will. Well, I mean to say I think Beverly Hills, Hollywood, and W3$T Hollywood will always be cool to me. Did you notice I left out the OC? I never really gave a shit about the OC.

What I'm trying to say, in a rather nice way-

I'll take L.V. over L.A. any day.



Double C's, Double G's, D's and G's, L's and V's- YES PLZ.

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hard femmes

hard femmes love talkin shit, in ca$e u were wondering. Hard femmes love all of the following:

vegas

talking shit

stealing accessories- jk

spur of the moment tattoos in vegas

pool parties, hot tubs, speedos

hard femmes LOVE 2 be surrounded by hot guys with no shirts on

gambling

sex workers

Angelina Jolie (although we favor her in the Foxfire and Hackers days)

celebrity gossip

gossip

THE LEGENDARY MISS BRITNEY SPEARS

trannies (we see them as allies)

makeup

platforms

gold

diamonds

ummmmm- versace? pronounced "ver-say-sssssss"

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November 9, 2007 - Friday


I love Paris Hilton

I want to rant about sum1 close to me. Nobody here knows Paris the way I do. The fact that she went to jail is BEYOND rediculous to me- she really is above the law. Every1 should worship her as the goddess she happens to be and try to get over their jealousy of her. She really is this generations iconic blonde. She really cares about ppl and it really hurts her feelings when ppl speak negatively about her.

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power

I think the gov should ONLY be made up of women. Come on, we know they would do a way better job.

I also think California should succeed from the "union." We have all of the following- The 5th largest economy in the WORLD (so the MONEY basically), the land, the food (CA is a world power in agriculture), the resources, the job force, the science, the silicon valley, the military presence, diversity of land (the beaches, the mountains, the desert, the valleys, the hills, etc), biotech firms, famous people, hollywood, LA, SF, San Jose, Stanford, UC Berkeley, the hippies, the sex worker industry, the porn industry... I could go on and on, but CA basically has it all. Fuck the rest of the united states, we could do it ON OUR OWN, and we would be way better for it, everyone would get richer and have more power. Other countries like CA, because they know that it's part of the solution, instead of the problem.



California as its own country. You know that little scheme would work.

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the real Eve

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Real_Eve

Basically, a geneticist made a movie a while ago that proves every single person alive today is related to ONE SINGLE BLACK WOMAN from Africa. I watched it on the discovery channel, but my mom who happens to be head of the math dept at Walnut Creek Intermediate School told me about it before I watched it, so I knew what to expect.



From a genetic standpoint- we're all African. Don't get it twisted!



I would like to go out on a limb and quote Kameelah Phillips, Stanford University alumi and Medical Doctor from The Real World: Boston. "Black men and Women are the kings and Queens of this world."

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las vegas

I've never been to sin city before, but I'm leaving saturday and cummin back monday. I'm so excited. I'm going to take a picture there, and then put it on my space on myspace, so everyone can see a picture of me, hanging out in vegas with my friends, tanning, gambling, and getting a lap dance.

But right now all I'm worried about is my current problem- just who is going to buy that lap dance?? Where is that money at??

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We gotta make sure u don't get gang raped!

science=truth, truth=beauty, beauty=love, love=art (science = art)

p.s. the funniest thing I heard this weekend:

"Kim Kartrashian," by Miss Coco Chanel.

"We livin ghetto fab, we spendin hella cash, this girl is hella bad, your choice is trailer trash," by Trina. p.s. I heard that back in the day, it got recycled on the radio and it brought back hella memories.

newayz,

The weather was amazing! I hug out with Famous Jamey in Emerald Bay, and she was so fun. Maybe this is the button that blows up the house! Anyways, today there were hella fires all over Malibu and the OC, I thought that was ironic yet entertaining. I got microderm and l.e.d. treatments on my face, I got to lay out in the sun, but best of all I got to go on a boat and observe numerous species of dolphins and learn even more about Marine Biology from a CA perspective, a subject (and viewpoint) close 2 my heart. Mostly because I love endemic species, they make me happy :)

I just heard this in the background on the Science Channel- "We've redefined what life is!"

tonight tonight

Tonight my hsbff Ariel Goldman came over! I love her. She's so amazing. She's working on this amazing sculpture right now, it's fit for a gallery. I can't wait for her success to come stronger and stronger. It's addicting and I know she's going to love it. All she has to do is learn how to schmooze people better, but that's an easy one if you ask me.

Anyways, we looked at one of West's sketch book today. All his drawings are so amazing. I love how he doesn't just draw (and do makeup airbrush), but he also makes music on reason and protools, is an amazing dancer, he does performance art as well. In fact, his life is performance art, or didn't you know? I love how he's majoring in sociology, he's clearly going to be very successful in whatever he chooses to do. He's very aware of people's emotions, it's gives him this amazing edge over people. I appreciate the fact that he is rather scientific. If we keep pooling knowledge, ideas, contacts, and resources, then we'll be unstoppable (over time).

mottos

truth = beauty

infinity = balance

creation/destruction

fake it till you make it

WWJJD: What Would Jenna Jameson Do?

love those who treat you right, forget those who don't