Just like everyone I often am not happy. As I've gotten older I've learned the life lesson that if I want to be happy and in a good state of mind at all times I have to be doing things that bring joy in my life and actively seek out such experiences on a daily basis.
I spent many years of my life not doing this and as a result spent long amounts of time not being happy. Unfortunately there is a lot in life that we can not control, but there are choices that we can make, cause and effect, which is why I believe in free will over fate. As I've gotten older I've had to relearn about myself to discover what really puts me in a good mental state.
I am always trying to turn up the volume on my life. For me that does not mean having raw sex with a bunch of guys or smoking meth, trying to push the limits of what my body can do and going into all out sex hysteria. For me turning up the volume on my life means always doing things that make me happy and bring joy into my life.
I often see people struggling, not getting what they want or not going anywhere in life. I often feel that way myself, but the truth is I can't keep waiting to start my life and there is always an option for happiness in the mean time. My life went on a sharp downward spiral when I turned 22 and I haven't really felt or been the same since then. I feel like I've been hibernating since then, trying to preserve the vestiges of what I had and was for a better time... but that time doesn't ever come, which means the time to turn up the volume is yesterday...
Which is why I often to suggest to people that they turn up the volume on their lives as well.
5/14/11
turning up the volume on one's life
1/9/08
mottos
hostility is the opposite of accommodating
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As a child, I always wanted to write a book called: Everything You Need to Know About Life You Learned From Darrin Goodness. I thought about it so much, and envisioned it. Now I realized I've already done that through this very medium- dgoodness.blogspot.com!
It really doesn't look like what you think it would, but it always happens :D
1/5/08
omg which 1 r u?
I'm enfj.
teacher/idealist
I guess I really am like Oprah!
ENFJ
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For the Socionics facsimile of this type, see Ethical Intuitive Extrovert.
ENFJ (Extroverted Intuitive Feeling Judging) is one of the sixteen personality types from the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI), and the Keirsey Temperament Sorter.
Referring to Keirsey, ENFJs belong to the temperament of the Idealists and are called "Teachers". The ENFJ personality type is also the least likely of the 16 Myers-Briggs personalities to 'flake out' on others once they commit to something. They are generally a very reliable group that do not like to disappoint others.
blast from the past
http://community.livejournal.com/hot_pants_crew/profile
I made this a while ago, there's a pic of me in hotpants!
Wow, this really takes me back. I'm so glad I don't live in the mission anymore.
forever young
"Defeating Programmed Cell Death"
Dinaz Kardooni to me
show details 9:17 AM (4 hours ago)
Obtained from Fantastic Voyage: Live Long Enough to Live Forever by Ray Kurzweil and Terry Grossman p. 21; Also check out Fantastic-Voyage.net
-Telomeres are strings of a repeating code at the end of each DNA strand
-every time the cell divides one sequence is lost; thus a limit on cell replication or "Hayflick limit"
-the enzyme, Telomerase, can overcome the limit, already found in cancer or germ line cells which are immortal
-animal experiments show some cancer increases, however, and there is current difficulty administering Telomerase enzyme into cell nuclei
-once overcome, however, the enzyme can immoratalize ALL human cells
I love this website
http://www.astrowisdom.com/thisnewmoon.htm
New Moon in Capricorn
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
3:37am PST
17º cap 33’
©2007 Lisa Dale Miller
All rights reserved
May 2008 be a year of peacemaking for every nation,
every family, every mind, and every heart.
I also read this one a lot- http://www.astrowisdom.com/thisfullmoon.htm
Full Moon in Leo
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
5:35am PST
1° le 54’
1/4/08
it's not every day...
that one gets to go in a sex club and see the scat tub! I'm not talking shit (pardon the pun), thank buddha for these spaces and people who attend. They're taking sexploration to the next level.
In my opinion, people don't have any safe arenas for safe and consensual sexploration. Far gone are the day of bath houses, raveged by HIV. Gone are the Cockettes, the preachers of free love. It's San Francisco, and here anything goes. Into any scene. J/O SGWM 23, into PNP, B&D, BB, and water sports. Just kidding! So, what gets you off?
Through living in the SOMA, I'm starting to see that sex really is San Francisco's life blood (in the words of Dee Dee Russell). At this point, I think of San Francisco as Amsterdam Version 2.0. You can get whatever you want here- for a price, and chances are it will be cheaper than you originally thought!
At one point I was jaded, but now again I'm filled with hope for the future. I realize that the bathhouse, once imagined in my head to be long dead, is alive and kicking, just inconveniently out of view. To be quite honest, I started to find them purely by chance. Walking the streets always helps me clear my head and find balance, it makes me feel good to be an observer.
I'm starting to observe the omnipresent yet clandestine sex clubs in all their glory. There all over the place. Usually disguised as a simple door leading "nowhere" all one has to do is venture a few feet in to be instantly transported deep underground. Green lights, tiny signs, hallways going nowhere, black doors. Chances are, it's a sex club, and it has to be making money if it's there, which means people have to be going consistently to keep it alive and running.
Where are these people, I ask myself. Is it the same people over and over? It's it a "one time thing" for the majority? And what's foremost on my mind,
When can this scat queen take a bath in the scat tub??
1/2/08
quotes
Every time you don't follow your inner guidance, you feel a loss of energy, loss of power, a sense of spiritual deadness.
Shakti Gawain
God has given you one face, and you make yourself another.
William Shakespeare
If time and space are curved, where do all of the straight people come from?
Author Unknown
In an expanding universe, time is on the side of the outcast. Those who once inhabited the suburbs of human contempt find that without changing their address they eventually live in the metropolis.
Quentin Crisp
The Naked Civil Servant, 1978
Is life not a hundred times too short for us to stifle ourselves.
Friedrich Nietzsche
It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere.
Agnes Repplier
It's a helluva start, being able to recognize what makes you happy.
Lucille Ball
1/1/08
8 is great
from http://www.astrology-numerology.com/numerology.html
4/18/1984 = my bday
I have more signs in Scorpio than any other sign, the 8th house, infinity on its side. I also live in 7+1+0=8, cute little addition.
8 (8, 17/8, 26/8, 35/8)
The Life Path 8 suggests that you entered this plane armed to lead, direct, organize and govern. You are very ambitious and goal-oriented. You will want to use your ambitions, your organizational ability, and your efficient approach to carve a satisfying niche for yourself. If you are a positive 8 you are endowed with tremendous potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas, and also possessing the tenacity and independence to follow them through to completion. In short, you were born to be an executive.
You know how to manage yourself and your environment. Your ability to judge the character and potential of the people around you is an asset used to your advantage. A large part of your success in life comes from how hard you work. This Life Path is the most prone to producing workaholics. But your ability to spot good people and engage them in your endeavors is a special trait not to be overlooked. There is an inspirational quality in your makeup which allows you to become a great leader. You are practical and steady in your pursuit of major objectives, and you have the courage of your convictions when it comes to taking the necessary chances to get ahead.
With the Life Path of the number 8 you are focused on learning the satisfactions to be found in the material world. The Life Path 8 produces many powerful, confident and materially successful people. Most of your concerns involve money and learning of the power that comes with its proper manipulation.
This Life Path is perhaps the one that is the most concerned with and desirous of status as an ultimate measure of success. You want to be recognized for your hard work and achievements. The attainment of honors and acceptance into the club of executive leadership is all important. For this, you may find yourself very well suited to compete in the business world or in the political arena.
In relationships, you are frank, honest, and steadfast. You may be very much in love, but watch that you are not too busy and preoccupied to show it. Being the lavish provider is not always an adequate substitute for showing your devotion and affection in more personal ways. You have a great need for close personal relationships to mitigate and somehow soften your nature. You must find the time for love and keep it as an important project in your life.
The negative 8 can be dictatorial and often suppresses the enthusiasm and efforts of fellow member of the environment. Often, the strength of their own personality excludes close feelings for other people with whom they come in contact. Material gains and rewards often become issues of utmost importance, even to the neglect of family, home and peace of mind. Dedication to success can become an obsession. Emotional feelings are often suppressed by the negative 8, resulting in isolation and loneliness. All Life Path 8 people must avoid discounting the opinions of others.
D-Na$$ty is reading...
The Singularity Is Near By Ray Kurzweil
My hypothesis = this book will soon be a million times more influential than the bible.
http://www.kurzweiltech.com/aboutray.html
12/31/07
12/30/07
http://xpress.sfsu.edu/archives/arts/008485.html
Punk Meets High Art At The de Young
by Mayra Martinez, staff writer
April 29, 2007 12:48 PM
The normally hallowed halls of the de Young Museum reverberated with the spirit of rebellion, punk and innovative fashion last Friday night for the second annual SF State College Night at the de Young Museum.
The museum's modern design and cool, neutral tones served as the backdrop for the kaleidoscope of brilliant colors and outrageous and experimental student designs and artwork in "Cutting Across the Social Fabric: a tribute to Vivienne Westwood."
The event was held in conjunction with the museum's current textile exhibit, "Vivienne Westwood: 36 Years in Fashion" and also featured the work of students of the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising, City College of San Francisco and the San Francisco Art Institute.
Spread throughout the museum, the night featured student work inspired by the legendary British fashion designer often called an iconoclast for the incendiary statements her clothes have always made.
A crowd of fashionable young things took in the intriguing designs and enjoyed music and cocktails and mingled with models still in show attire in the museum's lofty main court.
"I'm glad that fashion is finally being treated as art," said Darrin Goodness, 23, a former SF State student.
The highlight of the evening came in the form of a 30-minute fashion show, “Fashion Radicals,” where 20 student designers presented one or two audacious and bold designs each and a gallery art exhibition, both Westwood-inspired.
"There were some very innovative designs, I was really impressed, it’s new, it’s different, it’s funky," said Victor Karamalis, who flew in from Florida to see the show and recruit designers for his apparel company.
The program also featured a screening of a film by SF State cinema department students, "The King Ludd Army," and ended with an exhilarating capoeira dance performance by the San Francisco company Sul da Bahia.
"The event this year is really exciting because of the fashion show, which of course was so fitting with Vivienne Westwood," said Robert Melton, SF State College Night curator and SF State museum studies graduate student.
In its first and only U.S. showing, the international exhibit spans Westwood's career from 1970 to 2006.
Westwood attended a preview for the March 3 opening of her show that runs until June 10. Radiating a youthful nonchalance, in her ever cool and casual British cadence, the designer, 65, shared her passion for art, history and exploration, both creative and technical.
Against the gallery's dark gray walls, each of the exhibit’s 150 outfits stood as a gleaming example of Westwood's unique perspective and execution.
“She is an inspiration to everyone by showing that you can be 65 and still rock the world,” said SF State student designer Lareina Hillseth, 26.
Westwood began her career as a designer making clothes for the very first punks tearing out of London in the ’70s. As her designs evolved, they grew to include her trademark take on the traditional 18th century corset, and inventive cutting and slashing techniques.
For the fashion show part of the evening, the 269-person capacity auditorium proved to be not big enough for the throngs of people that arrived, and the de Young staff had to turn people away.
"I thought it was fantastic, it's great to see how people were inspired by Westwood but turned it into something new and different in their own style," said Clochette Nguyen, 29, who works as merchandiser for Banana Republic.
Models in mohawks and over-the-top bouffants and theatrical makeup strutted down the cherry-wood floors in everything from a black vinyl corset and black bondage dress to full ball gowns with bustles and elaborate tails.
The spectrum of colors ranged from neutral and black to cerulean blues, burnt oranges and bright yellows, red and blue plaid.
"It was such a success, I'm really overwhelmed by it all,” said Melton, who recruited professionals for the sound, music and lighting.
The lower museum level featured the works of textile students created with use of photography, oil and acrylic on canvas, sculpture and mixed-media installations.
Each piece listed the specific Westwood influence, like her anti-war stance or her signature flame-colored hair and ranged from uniquely crafted hats to smaller works constructed with plastic, wood, condoms and bottle caps.
"This is more my kind of art, done by college students, and it is so much more interesting to me than just looking at a painting," said University of San Francisco nursing student Marianne Monta, 22.
"It is so exciting to be here at the de Young," said apparel design student Esther Bennett, 30, standing next to the strapless dress made of vintage brocade she designed.
"I used to come here when I was little, and I never thought I'd be here on the other side" Bennett said.
For the de Young, the night purposely coincided with their "Friday Night at the de Young" series, where the museum stays open late for music, cocktails and special events geared for the arts.
"We intentionally make sure to include college students in our program," said Renee Baldocchi, manager of Public Programs at the de Young. "They are a very important part of our population."
Toward the end of the festivities, Ray Gin, 31, the SF State student and fashion show coordinator who successfully pitched the idea to Melton, finally sat down. Gin, who designed two looks for the show, spent two months recruiting designers and organizing.
"I would hopefully like to be able to describe the clothes tonight as SFSU," said Gin.
"The design program at State is a fledgling program,” said Gin, “hopefully events like this will help SFSU develop its own design sensibilities and character."
» E-mail Mayra Martinez @ mayramz@sfsu.edu
12/28/07
funny
December 28, 2007 - Friday
street hos/crack kills
Current mood: amused
Today, about an hour ago I saw something that was hard to forget. As I was walking on Mason, I crossed Ellis, the epicenter of tenderloin schemes. I was stopped at the intersection waiting to cross the street as I was making my way back to the soma.
Somehow, into view came a white woman bent over, about a block away not appearing to be doing anything, really. She was wearing blue jeans around her ankles (no panties), and she had shoulder length dirty blond hair, and a big black jacket up top. She was pale and gaunt, if I had to relate her looks to a celebrity, I would suggest that she looked like nicole kidman, only a few more years down the merry methadone trail. Before I could wrap my mind around what was going on, she pulled her pants up, and began briskly walking, shopping back in hand, she was on the go! I think she took a piss on the street in front of everyone in the middle of the day!
Oh I failed to mention something. I got a peek at her ass, it was red, bloody, and chapped! The crack on that street ho was just simply somethin else! P.s. crack kills! (I blame the us government for making it, subsequently distributing it to wipe out urban ppl of color) This white woman had so much pubic hair I could see it from a BLOCK away, and the carpet did not match the drapes! Her pubic hair was dark brown; however, I didn't get a good luck at any of her orifices (aside from her chapped, dry lips also visible from a block away) but if I had to guess, I'd predict those holes as being tore the fuck up! Bummer.
I feel like I was the only one who noticed! There was a white guy waiting next to me, he was tall and heavyset with a nondescript face. I really wanted to ask him if he saw what I saw, but then all of a sudden another white guy with a security guard uniform came walking the other way, and waved to him- and they both started a conversation.
I've been to Europe, ok I've only been to Amsterdam, and there weren't any homeless people there. Maybe 3, one of them tried to sell me blow.
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