astro.com

On March 21st, exactly at the beginning of spring, astrologers celebrate the International Astrology Day. This day was created in 1993 to remind people that Astrology is the oldest symbolic system of western culture still alive.
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Dinaz was telling me that the 21st is the solstice, and it means you have to take into account everything in your life that's out of balance, and then you have until the next solstice to fix it.

slutzgetjealous.com

"The Modern Tribal Housewife"
Abstract: This is a fetishized, glamorized, exoticized persona allegorical of the post-apocalyptic nuclear family in the global multinational era.

I think Dinaz might be a genius!!!

check out her website for more info.

not happy

5/27/07

Attn. Rob:

I am writing this letter to inform you that I am not paying the additional $30 rent, as my lease CLEARLY STATES that I am obligated to pay $600 until September. I have a copy of my lease enclosed. In addition, the bathtub drain is STILL clogged and has NEVER functioned properly. It needs to be routed out. The "hair stopper", as you called it, is obsolete. As for utilities, an "estimate" is unacceptable. I demand to see copies of the PG&E statements. I tried to contact you personally via cell phone but your number directs me to the wrong section of your voice mail. Please give me a call so we can discuss these matters more thoroughly: (925) 209-7911. I am incredibly grateful to have gotten the room in the first place and for all of the furniture you have given me, and I would like to make living here work even in spite of the infestation problem. If not, however, you can get all of the furniture back. I am signing this letter and will send a copy to the Renter's Board if necessary, although I hope that it won't be.

Sincerely,
Dinaz

thoughts.internet.2008.earth.california

everything you need to know about life you learned from D$KNY the greatest love story never told money is time the best sex you've never had i'm not running out of time you don't know what you've got till it's here infinity steps at a time a work out of progress infinity is the loneliest number c'est l'ocean a boire all the time in the universe a gamble is life the worst thing in the universe and it's a free country if you got the money

xxx,
$lutzgetjealou$ 2008

143, D$KNY

R.I.P. dgoodness.

$lutz Get Jealou$ is now responsible for this domain.

D-Na$$ty in US Weekly

Party girl Dinaz Kardooni was filmed blitzed out of her skull and struggling to talk after hitting crack fumes from a glass pipe. The tragic multimedia celebrity icon took hit after hit of the deadly drug after a 19-minute binge in which she snorted powdered xtc and blow. Darrin Goodness adds, “D-Na$$ty is looking ill and dirty, and is so thin you wonder how much more she can take. She needs help.” Her personal assitant cautions her to only take 1 booty bump (because the shit is from a concentrated sceme) but Dinaz disregards the warning and hungrily snorts a clump. Her new bottle blond hair looks fucked up. She loiters in public parks search of the next fix, all the while too oblivious on booze and drugs to do anything but fuck. She always has a glass pipe with rocks of crack, and she'll do anything to get high.

Dinaz E! True Hollywood Story

"She would do anything for sex. Anything. There were so many men. So many boys, so little time, I used to always joke with her. [sniffle] Inside, she was different, and I don't know if anyone ever really got that deep with her. She had a lot of sex, but love? I loved Dinaz. I often wonder if she really ever loved anybody, even herself. I know that deep inside, she just wanted to be loved."

"Dinaz was definitely a nymphomaniac. She was wild in bed. She'd fuck a couple of times in the day and then fuck through the night. She would fuck four times in a row- she was insatiable. She'd demand sex again and again. She'd go at it for hours. She'd have worn out most guys. Nobody could believe they were looking down at D-Na$$ty naked. Dinaz was so hot. She had an amazing body. Her backside is fantastic, perfect, all plump and round. She has great curves but her belly is nice and flat and toned. She'd do anything to get guys off."

"Getting inside her mind was the hardest, but if you got there watch out. There was really no going back. Her adaptation and resourcefulness were her most inspiring traits. That and her willingness to wholeheartedly embrace new art forms such as digital and performance. It's not often a genius like that is born. Maybe only every 100 years or so."

"She would do anything for shoes, including steal them. She was so good at that, she always got what she wanted, and thank god! She had such a thing for accessories, as long as she was consistently surrounded by gorgeous things, she was on top of her game. She knew a lot about the world. Sometimes, I wondered if she could get away with murder if she just tried. She got so much so fast, but it never really went to her head. She would always joke about selling out, but I know she just wanted everyone to enjoy her vision. She was sketchy though, make no mistake. If she met a hot guy at a club, I'd have to find my own way home. She'd do just about anything to hang out with the elite. Sometimes, I felt like she was trying to make up for her less than glamorous young adult life. But in the end, she always lived in poshest places around the world, drove nice cars, dressed in couture. By all accounts, she made it. She really only had to worry about becoming too famous too fast."

"I remember the drugs. They were always fun, but they came at a price. It was such a tragedy. She loved to get high, I knew it helped her escape her past. She was always chasing the impossible, always wandering. But not all who wander are lost. She really just wanted everyone to love her. She's this generations iconic blond."

"She only cared about herself. Ephemeral & eternal- it's her legacy."

"The sex tape really affected her, you know? She was never the same after that- she felt less than what she was. She took her career and herself very seriously, you know? Some things are just really insulting. It was as if they wanted to see her fall, fuck up, do something resembling human. She was too perfect for most people, you know? Deep down, she really just wanted everyone to love her. That sex tape was hard for her, it really intensified things with her family."

"Paris was the only celebrity Dinaz every really referenced. I don't think anyone ever really understood it. She was trying to represent an idea. A lot of people took Dinaz at face value. She was so ahead of her time. Maybe in 100 years they'll get it, and then put Dinaz on a 5 dollar bill. Dinaz at face value is still fierce, don't get me wrong. But if you really knew her, you saw her sneaky little ways in everything she did. Secret meanings and messages, clandestine histories/dramas/sex lives, and subliminal and/or subconscious symbols were omnipresent."

"Not many people know about her drawings, but I think they were some of her best works. Most were lost in the fire. She was always pulling out a new work, then loosing it or throwing it on the floor. Sometimes, I though it was the rush of creative inspiration, and not the creation itself that mattered to her."

"She was the first fashion mogul to live in outer space."

"Per$ia Hilton: Iran's Hottest Sexport"

"She always told me that she wished she'd been a dancer. She just loved to dance. She loved to express herself."

"Dinaz was one smart cookie. Her IQ was never measured, but I'd be surprised if it came back beyond measurable genius. She never opened her mouth, never shared her genius."

rehab

Celebrity Rehab on VH1 is amazing! The porno girl is already my favorite, she's already such a mess it's amazing. Dr. Drew is just so great, I've been a huge fan of his for many years. It's really inspiring to see someone content to become famous as a Doctor, instead of for some other reason. I can't believe that they got Chyna Doll back for another reality TV series. I also love Brigitte Nielson from Surreal Life and Strange Love.

Dinaz and I couldn't fucking believe that one guy they had on that show. It was basically a body being wheeled around, hallucinating, and about to die on cable TV- serving no purpose aside from being a good laugh for me and Dinaz. Dinaz and I speculated that perhaps, that person was never even famous, and had been planted as a reality TV surprise to scare the porno girl and Chyna Doll out of getting fucked up. Dinaz thinks everyone on that show is a joke.

I first started listening to Loveline a long time ago, it was always an amazing resource for sexual education. I remember the show on Mtv to be equally as fascinating, I was always a big fan of it. I get sad when I think that for a lot of kids, that was their only outlet for sexual education throughout their young adult lives. Well, that and looking at porn on the internet.

I"m glad that Dr. Drew got a new forum to bring his "addiction medical specialist" skills to work. He's going to be educating millions to the actuality of drugs and humans relationship with them.

Dr. Drew is all about sex and drugs! Loves it.



One time I saw a picture of Chyna Doll's clit on the internet, it was a screen capture from her sex video. This clit was fucking out of this world, it was so enlarged that perhaps Chyna Doll could fuck a chick with her clit. Chyna Doll is so ridiculous, I speculate that her clit has turned into the beginning stages of a tranny phallus from steroids? What's your hypothesis?

OK, maybe I'm exaggerating. I guess her clit could get some guys off? I never saw her sextape, why would I want to see it anyways? One Night In Chyna is nothing like One Night In Paris. Paris's movie was glamorous, fun, and everything it needed to be.

I love that even Chyna Doll has "leaked" a sex tape. I think "actors and actresses" won't be able to "becum famous" unless they're also porno starts. Dinaz and I watched Kim Kartrashian's "mom" sell her out to playboy yesterday on reality TV. What is this world cumming to? Cause I need some of that. jklol

Dinaz

Click here to visit Dinaz Sandal Kardooni's blog!

D-Na$$ty is reading...

The Singularity Is Near By Ray Kurzweil

My hypothesis = this book will soon be a million times more influential than the bible.

http://www.kurzweiltech.com/aboutray.html

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omg wtf

My whole life, I have had an affinity for animals. The first thing I ever wanted to be was a marine biologist, and that was from a very young age. I always knew I was destined to do great things, that's not what this blog is about.

Cetaceans and pinnepeds are my favorite animals. I've always liked dogs and cats, they just don't get me super excited. I'm also a big fan of sloths, sea otters (I don't know if they fall under pinnepedia or not), and umm, hairless rats? Maybe not.

Anyway, as long as I'm typing about animals-

In other news, 2 days ago Dinaz told me a story about how my old room mate jerked off a dog! Initially, I got a little flustered, interjecting, "OMG WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THIS YEARS AGO?!"

I got a little bit frustrated because she "couldn't remember the details."

"Dinaz, you don't forget details like that!!!" I exclaimed passionately. "Whose dog was it?" was my next and most pressing question. I still don't have an answer.

I don't know. There are some things even I won't do.

http://xpress.sfsu.edu/archives/arts/008485.html

Punk Meets High Art At The de Young

by Mayra Martinez, staff writer
April 29, 2007 12:48 PM

The normally hallowed halls of the de Young Museum reverberated with the spirit of rebellion, punk and innovative fashion last Friday night for the second annual SF State College Night at the de Young Museum.

The museum's modern design and cool, neutral tones served as the backdrop for the kaleidoscope of brilliant colors and outrageous and experimental student designs and artwork in "Cutting Across the Social Fabric: a tribute to Vivienne Westwood."

The event was held in conjunction with the museum's current textile exhibit, "Vivienne Westwood: 36 Years in Fashion" and also featured the work of students of the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising, City College of San Francisco and the San Francisco Art Institute.

Spread throughout the museum, the night featured student work inspired by the legendary British fashion designer often called an iconoclast for the incendiary statements her clothes have always made.

A crowd of fashionable young things took in the intriguing designs and enjoyed music and cocktails and mingled with models still in show attire in the museum's lofty main court.

"I'm glad that fashion is finally being treated as art," said Darrin Goodness, 23, a former SF State student.

The highlight of the evening came in the form of a 30-minute fashion show, “Fashion Radicals,” where 20 student designers presented one or two audacious and bold designs each and a gallery art exhibition, both Westwood-inspired.

"There were some very innovative designs, I was really impressed, it’s new, it’s different, it’s funky," said Victor Karamalis, who flew in from Florida to see the show and recruit designers for his apparel company.

The program also featured a screening of a film by SF State cinema department students, "The King Ludd Army," and ended with an exhilarating capoeira dance performance by the San Francisco company Sul da Bahia.

"The event this year is really exciting because of the fashion show, which of course was so fitting with Vivienne Westwood," said Robert Melton, SF State College Night curator and SF State museum studies graduate student.

In its first and only U.S. showing, the international exhibit spans Westwood's career from 1970 to 2006.

Westwood attended a preview for the March 3 opening of her show that runs until June 10. Radiating a youthful nonchalance, in her ever cool and casual British cadence, the designer, 65, shared her passion for art, history and exploration, both creative and technical.

Against the gallery's dark gray walls, each of the exhibit’s 150 outfits stood as a gleaming example of Westwood's unique perspective and execution.

“She is an inspiration to everyone by showing that you can be 65 and still rock the world,” said SF State student designer Lareina Hillseth, 26.

Westwood began her career as a designer making clothes for the very first punks tearing out of London in the ’70s. As her designs evolved, they grew to include her trademark take on the traditional 18th century corset, and inventive cutting and slashing techniques.

For the fashion show part of the evening, the 269-person capacity auditorium proved to be not big enough for the throngs of people that arrived, and the de Young staff had to turn people away.

"I thought it was fantastic, it's great to see how people were inspired by Westwood but turned it into something new and different in their own style," said Clochette Nguyen, 29, who works as merchandiser for Banana Republic.

Models in mohawks and over-the-top bouffants and theatrical makeup strutted down the cherry-wood floors in everything from a black vinyl corset and black bondage dress to full ball gowns with bustles and elaborate tails.

The spectrum of colors ranged from neutral and black to cerulean blues, burnt oranges and bright yellows, red and blue plaid.

"It was such a success, I'm really overwhelmed by it all,” said Melton, who recruited professionals for the sound, music and lighting.

The lower museum level featured the works of textile students created with use of photography, oil and acrylic on canvas, sculpture and mixed-media installations.

Each piece listed the specific Westwood influence, like her anti-war stance or her signature flame-colored hair and ranged from uniquely crafted hats to smaller works constructed with plastic, wood, condoms and bottle caps.

"This is more my kind of art, done by college students, and it is so much more interesting to me than just looking at a painting," said University of San Francisco nursing student Marianne Monta, 22.

"It is so exciting to be here at the de Young," said apparel design student Esther Bennett, 30, standing next to the strapless dress made of vintage brocade she designed.

"I used to come here when I was little, and I never thought I'd be here on the other side" Bennett said.

For the de Young, the night purposely coincided with their "Friday Night at the de Young" series, where the museum stays open late for music, cocktails and special events geared for the arts.

"We intentionally make sure to include college students in our program," said Renee Baldocchi, manager of Public Programs at the de Young. "They are a very important part of our population."

Toward the end of the festivities, Ray Gin, 31, the SF State student and fashion show coordinator who successfully pitched the idea to Melton, finally sat down. Gin, who designed two looks for the show, spent two months recruiting designers and organizing.

"I would hopefully like to be able to describe the clothes tonight as SFSU," said Gin.

"The design program at State is a fledgling program,” said Gin, “hopefully events like this will help SFSU develop its own design sensibilities and character."

» E-mail Mayra Martinez @ mayramz@sfsu.edu

c D-Na$$ty

homage to D-Na$ty
Current mood: grateful

I met D-Na$$ty in 2002 when I lived in the dorms, and she's stuck with me over time. Out of all the people I've ever met, she's had a lasting affect on my life. She always has a positive attitide, and she's such a sweet girl! She's always down for anything fun, and she's never one to bring the drama. Although she can be reserved at times, she always has so many good ideas and interesting viewpoints on a very wide variety of subjects. In addition to being a desinger, she also knows a lot about science and technology, and it seems to me like she's always got something up her sleeve, which I appreciate. I love people who keep my interest. Basically, I'm thankful for having her as a friend. 2008 is your year, D$KNY. It's weird for me to think that I FORCED Dinaz into myspace all those years ago, and I even went on her profile and updated it for her in the early days. lol, it's like I'm always getting her into something<333








To all earthlinks present, I extend a colloquial "greetings" from the cavernous depths of 2D graphical representation. My name is Binex.
I emerged from the abyss when the rising hexagram of the I Ching coincided with the Binary system and was scanned in sequence in a barcode. Now I am confined to this digital purgatory territory until "exhaustion", the next hexagram in the cycle, is scanned in sequence, at which time I will harken back to the abyss.
Oh, wait I have e-mail. Excuse me, I need to take this. No seriously I have no choice. (distorted) Dear monetarily valued internet space time share holder. Our Tracking records database shows that your UPC codes have qualified you for this complementary pair of virtual 3D glasses.
Well I guess I should try them on since they're free and all. Maybe I could regift or something... wait a nanosecond, whats going onnnnnn....
"metaphysical aura orifice"
Wow, they really do virtually work. I guess, anyway. This is kind of a bummer, real life isn't all it's cracked out to be. I'm all puffy, not to mention way less attractive, and I won't get back to the abyss if I'm not there when the big scan is to take place. It seems the only way out is to be rendered as an internet persona by a depressive alcoholic narcissist. But where would I find such a tool? Maybe on Myspace...

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Subject http://www.bmezine.com/news/pubring/20070917.html
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 09:49
http://www.bmezine.com/news/pubring/20070904.html
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Subject intense!
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 09:25
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jimmy_Edgar
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Subject island biogeography
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 07:48
Basically, I'm giving every1 6 months of evolutionary ecology in a paragraph (or 2).

Neways, today as I was walking by the NOW DRY puddle of blood on the street, it got my little brain to thinkin. Thinkin about pigeons.

I've had the pleasure of observing them for the past 5 years, ever since I moved to San Francisco. The populations change at an alarming rate- phenotype (and genotype). If any1 says that they don't believe in evolution, too bad, because I have observed it in the real world. Anyways, because of the fact that there are no resources to support life in the metropolitan area, animal evolution is now exactly like "island biogeography" because there are small "islands" here and there, and the islands are the only areas with resources- these are places such as backyards, parks, small patches of green, etc. There are also microislands- this could be a puddle, a single tree, a bunch of food garbage in a pile on the street, etc.

I like to observe birds, because other than water and rats, they are the biggest vector (vector in biology = a disease causing/spreading agent, different from a physics vector). I see small populations change so much. I feel like the salt n pepa pigeon might soon replace the standard pigeon- it has the dna of many types of pigeons- basically, it's a mutt like me! Did I mention that I happen to be BLACK and NATIVE AMERICAN and I LOVE not being white? Cause it's true.

Neways, As a result, the pigeon of the future will be stronger in the long term (resistant to more diseases, etc). This will be the case UNLESS there is a dramatic shift in the land, climate, etc, in which case the "ideal" will again change to match the environment.

Basically, I would call these thoughts "diffusion science" because I didn't do any active work in coming up with this shit- merely sat back and payed attention to my surrounding environment. Oh yeah, I did happen to get an A in Evolutionary Ecology, and I did remember the information on which I was tested ;P
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Subject Lance Bass
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:32
Why do I love him? Well, have you gone into outer space? For the sake of argument, I'm going to have to go ahead and type "no." Lance Bass has, and that's hot! Lance Bass for president- let's put him on the 5 dollar bill.

p.s. I think beautiful gay men should be on money, instead of slave owners. I mean, what kind of message is that sending anyways?
slave = dolla billz = sex work = whips = oldwhitemen = the south = pain = suffering = power? Also, if there's one thing I've learned about gay guys in my LONG 23 years on the face of this earth is that they will do JUST ABOUT ANYTHING for money, including sex work. Basically, ever gay man I've ever met has at one time or another, admitted to either doing porn in their past, ORRRRR having sex with daddies for money, myself included. LOL
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Subject myspace
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:28
I love myspace, because whenever I want, I can log off an NONE OF IT IS EVEN REAL. Also, I can delete my account whenever I want (I plan on it, if I feel like making another one I will) and still, none of it was even tangible.

I'm just practicing for when my brain gets plugged into a the internet.

Did I mention that I Love New York (2).

*jus chillin*
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Subject dreams
Posted Date: November 23, 2007 - Friday - 05:24
I'm really into lucid dreaming. I think I got too good at it. The past 2 nights I had really intense dreams, but it was 5 variations on the same dream, basically, the same theme over and over, and I did have nightmares the past 2 nights. It was all about my childhood.

Why can't I just have have 100% lucid sex dreams, like my friend who told me about lucid dreaming. I guess I have to work for it. Bummer!

Also, I snore and I grind me teeth something terrible. Mouth guards aren't enough. sumtimez get headaches.

I still have a runny nose. I hope it's not staph. I think it's just the cold weather. I want to move somewhere tropical, I want to sweat everyday. That would make me happy.
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Subject movies
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 13:48
Out In Nature















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Subject interests
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 11:03
betrayal, Debutante, fast cars, fast men, fast $, highlights, loyalty, power, tanning, wealth
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Subject Adam & Steve pt. 2
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 06:33
http://www.adamandstevemovie.com/
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Subject Adam & Steve
Posted Date: November 22, 2007 - Thursday - 06:31
http://www.creativethriftshop.com/Artist%20Warehouse/images_gdlp/Gdlp_oasis.htm
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Subject thxgvng
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 19:29
..What am I thankful for?
My life, and my friends
My significant other
animals
calories
Persia Hilton: Iran's Hottest Sexport
Kimora Lee
sunny weather
the cartoon art museum
Tranny 911
The evolution of Gay Pimp's career on Logo (sucks how he got fat)
ummmm
420 Slut
privatized space exploration
OH YEAH
OSIRIS.COM is what I'm most thankful for.
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Subject story
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 19:13
Tonight in the tl I was walking home from an event with Dynatsy Ho, when a troubled upper class black man having a nervous breakdown came up to me and begged for help (he just got his car jacked today- "but everybody's kool"). Things like this always happen to me! D-Nasty thought he was sketchy and hence should be avoided, and looking back on it, he did keep taking out little notes he wrote to himself with arbitrary numbers all over in a hodge podge of information what would make sense only to the person who jotted it down. Maybe I seem like sum1 who could help? I'm totally clueless. I thought it was funny though. I love living in San Francisco, people are usually willing to chop it up.

Bums ask me for $ all the time too, I guess I appear to have a lot of money laying around or something.

Good bum stories I've collected:
The bum jerking off in a sleeping bag outside of Peet's Coffee
The legless bum who always slept outside of Peet's Coffee
+ way more from when I used to hang out at hippy hill all the time
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Subject 12:14
Posted Date: November 21, 2007 - Wednesday - 17:14
Right now I'm hanging out with D-Nasty. We walked to rainbow market and back this evening because we are hippies! Wait- Yippies? no- jk. newayz weird things of the day time:

Speaking of blood, today we saw a FATTY puddle on the street by my house. I took a picture of it on my camera phone. What's with all this blood all over the place? Seriously, If I had to estimate the volume I would say 1/2 to 3/4 of a cup of blood, in a puddle, and strewn about.

Also, my friend Hilary found $2.00 on the street in front of my house! Lucky. We got lunch at whole foods they had hella thanxgiving stuff out in the food bar.
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Subject http://www.singinst.org/blog/
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:47
it's good
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Subject science channel
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:33
I don't get it! I don't get any good educational tv! I'm not happy.
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Subject night out
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 18:22
SO,

I rode earlier on the 38. I was walking thru the tl (tenderloin) and I saw a creepy white guy walking at a brisk pace. As soon as he got about 10 feet from me, I could see that his face was COVERED in blood. his nervous blue eyes met mine for a split second, I'm sure my eyes told him everything. It was creepy!

After that, I followed the trail of blood for several blocks! so much blood! it was a sight to see.

newayz,

on my way home a creepy homeless sat behind me on the bus and was grunting and growling so much that I had to move! It really says something when it's barely 2 a.m. and the only person on the bus is me + 3 sleeping raggedy pant tramps.

Also, I saw this one guy I used to see all the time when I worked at peets 3rd/mission. He has white hair, a white beard, and he always wears a confederate flag ring. He is a real freaky daddy. One of my friends talked to him one time when they were tripping! omg that guy freaks me out so much- I've heard him speak.

thank buddha for all the freaks in SF!

sucks how I don't have a car.

Other weird stuff that's happened to me lately:
I've seen 3 shooting stars in the past month
I had more, but I forgot!


interests (recycled)
loyalty, betrayal, fast men, fast $, alfa romeo, Urban Studies, biotechnology, bioaugmentation, nitrogen cycles, Mars, Jupiter, corporate surveillance, gambling, prostitution, chemicals, affluence, highlights, tanning
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Subject http://thesisters.org/playfair.html
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 14:54
I thought this was kool :)
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Subject thesisters.org
Posted Date: November 20, 2007 - Tuesday - 14:36

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Subject (bio)augmentation @ osiris dot com
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 09:27
I have had the extreme pleasures to see bioaugmentation irl- my significant other West has had an infusion of stem cells through a research project called The Osiris Project that is currently treating Crohn's patients in San Francisco.

I love being able to observe this moment in history first hand- it's very exciting and inspiring!

There is a chance he received a placebo, but I don't think that is the case because I've seen his tissue rapidly heal over the course of a few days- basically months of work in an afternoon. He has "the flush" of someone who has received an infusion of stem cells.

Basically, stem cells could cure any disease, and they could also make people live forever! Well, in case you died in a global pandemic or from being hit by a car. Forever Young.

Did I fail mention that it MIGHT be wise to invest in this technology?


Living forever in my human body doesn't interest me. I want to have a robot body, connect my brain to the internet, becum a virus and, put my face on yr desktop! lol

Negative Side affects: moodiness, mood swings, and he smells like creamed corn so much, omg it comes out of his mouth (it's from a combo of hormones + more). These leave after 1-3 days.

I love research! It's so fun to see what improvements science can make on our lives and the world. It's interesting to observe this.
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Subject http://www.bio.davidson.edu/courses/genomics/2002/Pierce/gaygene.htm
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:20
the "gay" "gene(s)"
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Subject secret
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:06
You can have a body as good as me if you don't eat meat. I go through 6 months work out binges, and then long periods of laziness, but I swear I had muscles 3 months ago.

Neways, I'm really into isometric exercises. Rock Climbing is my fav, but I'll always be best at endurance types (long distance running). I need more cardio!!!

Not eating salt and sugar is another big one. Sugar addictions signal depression, salt addictions signal anxiety (I have a terrible salt addiction).

I'm trying to copy Amy Sedaris. Well, her writing style I mean 2 say.
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Subject http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rupaul
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 08:05
Thank you Rupaul, for everything you do for us.
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Subject weird a$$ day
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 07:55
So, today I left my house and was walking around downtown san francisco.

Anyways, first I stumbled upon an amazing business, and went inside and talked to the owner, etc. I really respect it, I'm going to write another blog about it in a hot minute. I even told the guy I was going to write a blog about it :)

Anyways, then I went to the flagship academy of sciences, and I talked to 2 fun young people who are just as into it as I am. My little scheme is going slowly, but it's going to work! I love the academy of sciences.

newayz,
on my way home, a really fukkin hot blond guy (basically, a perfect 10, no lie, with knuckle tats came up to me) and asked me in a foreign accent if I believed in god. I explained to him that I'm an atheist (because I've taken too many science classes, basically I'm too educated for that) and then I went on to explain that I borrow ideologies from Buddhism and Judaism, although I do happen to be interested in studying Hinduism. After that 20 second little story, he went on to ask me if I wanted to go study the bible with him, and if I knew other people who wanted to learn about it! I then explained to him that I only believe in myself, what ppl think is god exists in every1, and also, I've basically been able to go in a lab and play god in real life (IRL), and then I said good luck your little scheme.


I mean, I got that strange feeling inside my head that told me, "wtf, another creepy white "str8" guy is only trying to get me alone with him RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT in order to fuck me and then kill me (or kill me THEN fuck me). White guys are getting more an more desperate as their days come to a close. Their time is over...


Blond guys are hot, but I know they're 0% (ZERO PERCENT, ZERO POUR CENT en francais si vous ne pouvez pas le comprendre) intelligent. Blond guys were created to be my sex slaves! Basically, I see them as sex objects- everybody should, that's all they're good for anyways ;)

- love, Darrin Goodness
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Subject http://greencitizen.com
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 07:12
THIS IS AMAZING, AND IT'S GOING TO BE HUGE IN THE FUTURE. It's always a good idea to hop on top of a dick before it becums 2 big and then grows a HUGE ego, if you know what I'm saying.

I love it! http://greencitizen.com. every1 should visit http://greencitizen.com at least one time! http://greencitizen.com is doing something positive for the world, hence all of the people who live in it. http://greencitizen.com would be a wise investment if you have some money laying around.
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Subject I Love New York 2
Posted Date: November 19, 2007 - Monday - 05:00
I feel like it's only a matter of time before she becomes way more famous. I've always "had love" 4 New York, she's an inspiration to us all. I think it's cool how she grew up in the same part of new york as my parents, her mom teaches at syracuse university! I love how in the last episode I saw she was promoting sexual health, and she always displays her self esteem in an assertive manner. She clearly ended up using her degree in sociology effectively, because now she has been immortalized forever not only as a positive role model, but she has had a major social impact on all the people who willingly watch her life on cable tv.

"I'm a strong black woman, and I need a man who is able to handle that!"

I'd like to add that the Salt N Pepa show just came on Vh1. Very Necessary was the first cassette I ever bought (at target). However, the first CD I bought was No Doubt, Tragic Kingdom (I always played it on the computer). At that time, I was so amazed that a music CD could be played on a computer wtf!
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Subject http://www.daiso-sangyo.co.jp/english/
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:18
store review Diaso-

I've been going to this amazing store lately, and more and more of then are starting to show up in the bay area. It's a japanese dollar store called daiso, and I love it so much! I think because of the fact that it comes from a Buddhist culture all of the items are multifunctional, or at least functional.
newayz
they have so much cool shit- stones, ashtrays, false eyelashes, dishes, school supplies, drug bags, etc- kind of a hodge podge of everything, and you need it all!
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Subject http://electricsheep.org/
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:17
this is the only screen saver I've ever cared about.
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Subject according to the president of iran
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 17:00
gay people don't exist in iran (according to CBS news on LOGO). Creepy! All of a sudden I no longer give a fuck about that cuntry. I hope ppl aren't getting killed in the streets. oh wait, that's been a reality this whole time. sucks how iran is about to get royally fucked up by the united states in the near future- OMG they should make a reality tv show about it! I've seriously been waiting my whole life to see humans be executed/maimed on camera- fun for the whole family :)
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Subject I fu*ked another bitch, talk sh*t if u want 2

Subject copy/paste poetry
Posted Date: November 18, 2007 - Sunday - 03:28
Forgo the ebullition
could not contain the premonition
Once forgotten, twice bitten
abolitionism spittin
pickin cotton, finger lickin
spin the record, change the linens
white, unlike truth, lies all forgiven.
-Dinaz Sandal Kardooni '07
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Subject 2 richest entertainers
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 17:03
Oprah & Dolly Parton
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Subject aeon flux
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 17:01





2007 IS COMING TO AN END

1. Have you had any relationships this year?
y

2. Have you had your birthday yet?
n

3. Cried yet?
y

4. Been on a diet?
y

5. Pulled an all nighter?
y

6. Drank Starbucks?
n

7. Went Camping?
n

8. Bought something(s)?
y

9. Met someone special?
y

10. Been out of state?
y

12. What are you thinking about?
CHILLIN

___________________________________________

1.) Hugged someone?
y

2.) Slept in someone elses bed?
y

3.) Got a job?
y

4.) Loaned out money?
y

5.) Gotten in a car accident?
n

6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill?
y

7.) Been called a slut?
y

8.) Done something you regret?
n

LAST :
_________________________________________________________

Last Person you hugged?
William

Last Person to call you?
D-Nasty

When was the last time you felt stupid?
today

Who did you last yell at?
West

What did you do today?
woke up early, cleaned, read, not showered yet.

TEN FACTS :
______________________________________________________
01. Name?
Truth Hurtz

02. Natural hair color?
dark Brown

03. Initials?
DG

04. Hair style?
cute!

5. Eye color?
dark brown

06. Height:
5'6"

07. Pets:
a fish and a 4inch by 4inch, by 3 inch self-sustaining ecosystem

08. Mood?
CHILLIN

09. Where would you rather be?
Australia, Europe

10. What was the last thing you drank?
h2o

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

01. Have you ever been in love:
y

02. Do you believe in love?
sometimes!

03. Why did your LAST relationship fail?
intensity?

04. Have you ever been heartbroken:
n

05. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
?

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
n

07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
n

08. Are you afraid of commitment?
y

10. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
n

4 EMOTIONS
_______________________________________________________
01. Are you missing someone right now?
3 ppl

02. Are you happy?
y

03. Are you eating anything?
n

04. Do you like someone right now?
y





http://www.bmezine.com/news/pubring/20070606.html

I love this! I couldn't find it for a hot minute, I finally did and I'm happy about it! yay loves it. I Love New York. I also have love 4 New York.

magnetic vision

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qaf on logo

I'm Emmett! omg which one are you?

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spite

spite is a phenomenon that occurs when a player's value of an allocation decreases when one or more other players' valuation increases

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Subject http://www.ninjanorth.com
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 15:11
her music video fashion is amazing


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Subject Angelina Jolie
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 13:22
No matter what direction she decides to take, I plan on always being a fan. I was recently watching her on the actor's studio on bravo, and she expressed her "desire for sum1 to really dissect her sexuality in a real way, and write about it," so I'm going to try.

Instead of giving backup information, I'm just going to type "feelings" I get from her. She is someone with a high E.Q. basically sum1 who has a lot of compassion for people, of all walks of life. She has fallen in love with women in the past and sustained relationships, so I have to assume that she has a liberal notion of love and perhaps a "fluid" sexuality. I mean to say in terms of media portrayal, because she mainly appeals to a straight audience (and is hence presumed to be). She is an international traveler, and sees many forms of sexuality in other countries, which probably makes her not subscribe to gender normative roles (although she has the basic feminine appearance, at least from the stand point of the "average" person and the images, videos, and clips the media feeds to this audience.

It seems like she tries to open people's minds to other identities, possibilities, lifestyles, etc- all of which happen to be part of her personality. She deserves respect!

Basically, I'm trying to say that the reason she's a sex symbol is because she understands it on a very deep level. She's an inspiration to us all and should be on money! A dollar bill would be so much hotter if her face was on it instead of a slave owner.

newayz...
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Subject I'll admit I'm not that great in the big scheme of things
Posted Date: November 24, 2007 - Saturday - 06:59
Average: 85 - 115
Above average: 116 - 125
Gifted Borderline Genius: 126 - 135
Highly gifted and appearing to be a Genius to most others: 136 - 145
Genius: 146 - 165
High Genius: 166 - 180
Highest Genius: 181 - 200
Beyond being measurable Genius: Over 200
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last week blog

sun(less)day gx tx chxrch

I just woke up. Well, I've been awake for a few hours, but I was doing stuff.

newayz,
it's cold and cloudy downtown. This is the kind of weather that makes me want to shrivel up into a ball, hide in a small room, and never cum out.

How the fuck did I get here? I grew up in a place where for half the year it was 72 degrees, light breeze, no clouds. Then, over the summer, maybe 2 months of 80s or 90s, and one month of 100s. I'm all about it! The coldest t ever got was 45 degrees? maybe not even that cold. I always say that the weather is what will make me eventually leave san francisco, and I'm not lying about it. I get seasonal affect disorder something terrible (I love blaming problems on other things besides myself).

newayz,
it's sunday! time to go to church. JUST KIDDING. I was raised methodist, an although I've been so educated in science I know that being an atheist what's really going on, I "don't mind" people who are "good christians" lol I'm talking about them like they are something real. My mom forced me to go, I resisted every time. My grandma is catholic, and she tried to take me to a catholic church one time when I was a small child.

I burst into tears, and I wouldn't stop until she took me out- I was only in one for about 5 mins. I could tell that there were people there who wanted to hurt me- it's not hard a child to follow their intuition. My thought is that catholicism is on par with death cults.

p.s. I love Jews and Jewesses.

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November 17, 2007 - Saturday


why I love Britney Spears

A lot of people have been focusing on the negative aspects of B. Spears lately, and I don't really understand why. She's entertained millions, lost her virginity in front of our eyes, talked to young girls (who aren't yet women) about how to look sexy 4 guys- so basically she has inspired all of us.

Let's try to gain some insight into Britney Spears a little bit. I thought she was from Louisiana- basically she's from the south. I have to go out on a limb, and assume that Kentwood is not a large city, because I never heard of it before. So- she's from a small town, in the south. I assume that because she entered the business early in life, she either had some type of "desire to whore herself," unless it was her parents who pressured her into the entertainment industry. So- she's "that kind" of personality, coupled with being from a small town, in the South.

OF COURSE a girl like that is going to have 2 (two) babies in her early 20s. Of course a girl like that is going to think that Kevin Federline is marriage material. of course a girl like that is going to make pro g w bush and pro war statements. And then, of course a girl like that is going to have her feelings hurt (and spiral out of control) when everyone always talks about how stupid, crazy, and fucked up she is- wouldn't you? So she has a drug problem! Big fucking deal, who hasn't these days. I just read a quote from Reba and she says we should "pray for Britney." At least sum1 wants to help her instead of making her look like a damn fool.

Her new album is amazing- it too can be dissected. She basically has a "Gwen Stefani" song, a "Justin Timberlake" song, a "Timbaland" song etc. She referenced her contemporaries- what a genius. I don't understand why everyone dislikes her so much, psychologically speaking, she's one of the easiest types to dissect.

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websites visited today:

http://www.amonhotep.com/- They sell The Real Eve on DVD



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November 16, 2007 - Friday


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Thursday, November 15, 2007
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Pussy Power, we in cunt-troll! (trina)
Current mood: weird

Just a precautionary note: This blog is long-winded as fuck so just walk away now if you're already over it...

At the risk of carrying the torch for the dyke brigades, I feel the need to divulge some "Goddess Epiphanies" I retained while writing a term paper. The Greeks, often cited as the founders of Western Civilization, were actually rooted in the earlier Mycenean Civilization, who were merely the mainland second fiddle to the Cretean Islandic population known as the Minoans. They, although non-militaristic, still had economic naval control of the mainland, and although the society was stratified, there was no class struggle, no political aggrandizement. (The only known figure at this time was King Minos, although it is still debatable whether "Minos" was a single person or synonymous with King in general. --The myth of Minos originated in Greece, involving Zues disguising as a bull and impregnating Minos' wife Persephae, who gave birth to a freakish half-man/ half-bull who dwelled in the labyrinth under the Minoan Palace of Knossos and fed off prisoners. This might have just been Mycenean resentment of naval rule. The Minoans were also referred to as the Lost City of Atlantis in Greek mythology. Why Zues had to disguise himself in the first place, and as a bull no less... What a sick fucking world, am I right?) Although peace-loving, there were elements of cannibalism and human sacrifice, but even the preistesses were known to offer themselves, which gives way to the second theme:

The society may or may not have been matrilineal, and there were, in all fairness, preists and kings. However, they were often depicted in drag during ceremonies (a possible Syrian influence) and were more or less pawns of the High Preistess, who became the epiphany of the Mother Goddess through ritualistic drug-induced ecstatic dancing. She was featured prominently, decked out head to toe in gold jewelry, with ginormous exposed breastage, a girdled wasp waist, and a flounced skirt, and guess what? It wasn't slutty, it was divine. The drugs of choice were alcohol and opium, as indicated by the Poppy Goddess. Most notable is the Procession Fresco, depicting two LONG lines of men offering gifts and adulations to the Preistess. (Can I get an Amen?)

The living was communal. The men would be out at sea most of the time while the women held down the fort, and apparently no one knew at this point the questionable role men played in child conception, which explains the heightened female status, although once again, men were still considered equal. The civilization held up for six centuries; it even withstood a series of natural disasters (mainly earthquakes), but it was upon the eruption of Mount Thera in 1650 BCE that the Myceneans decided to invade and kick them while they were down. (How's that for a sucker punch, eh?) Shortly thereafter was a massive cultural decline. Archeological evidence shows only two buildings rebuilt, and art and pottery examples were merely cruder versions of that of the Minoans. The Myceneans gave way to the Greeks. All the Minoan Goddesses were adopted but made Zeus- centric, although Ria, mother of Zues, is said to be the Original Mother Goddess. Women were confined indoors all their lives and sold as property to their husbands, usually at 13. Only hookers could venture outdoors.

What I suggest is that it's high time women (and empathetic men) take back the power: beat the patriarchy at its own game. Should there be the unfortunate event of a terrorist attack or a natural disaster; although it is an overall tragedy and victimizes many innocent people, one could treat it as a swift kick in the balls (which could temporarily paralyze ANY man; Bitch ain't give a shit who the fuck they think they is!) to the present socioeconomic hegemony at large, and promptly go for the jugular-- what this could in fact be the analog of is, I guess, another long-ass blog of the future. Thx 4 holding out this long. Until next time, Sweet Babies!

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November 15, 2007 - Thursday


las vegas is better than L.A.

So- I've always loved Los Angeles from afar- basically I always knew that it's a world totally separate and removed from norcal.

NEWAYS,

I went to Vegas for the first time ( for $oloterre's 22nd bday!)

NEWAYZ-

It's way cooler than L.A.- L.A. is basically a HUGE shit hole that pretends to be glam and fab- Vegas is a pseudoshithole, that really happens to be glam and fab.

Not like I hate L.A. I mean, basically, I still think L.A. is cool- I probably always will. Well, I mean to say I think Beverly Hills, Hollywood, and W3$T Hollywood will always be cool to me. Did you notice I left out the OC? I never really gave a shit about the OC.

What I'm trying to say, in a rather nice way-

I'll take L.V. over L.A. any day.



Double C's, Double G's, D's and G's, L's and V's- YES PLZ.

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hard femmes

hard femmes love talkin shit, in ca$e u were wondering. Hard femmes love all of the following:

vegas

talking shit

stealing accessories- jk

spur of the moment tattoos in vegas

pool parties, hot tubs, speedos

hard femmes LOVE 2 be surrounded by hot guys with no shirts on

gambling

sex workers

Angelina Jolie (although we favor her in the Foxfire and Hackers days)

celebrity gossip

gossip

THE LEGENDARY MISS BRITNEY SPEARS

trannies (we see them as allies)

makeup

platforms

gold

diamonds

ummmmm- versace? pronounced "ver-say-sssssss"

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November 9, 2007 - Friday


I love Paris Hilton

I want to rant about sum1 close to me. Nobody here knows Paris the way I do. The fact that she went to jail is BEYOND rediculous to me- she really is above the law. Every1 should worship her as the goddess she happens to be and try to get over their jealousy of her. She really is this generations iconic blonde. She really cares about ppl and it really hurts her feelings when ppl speak negatively about her.

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power

I think the gov should ONLY be made up of women. Come on, we know they would do a way better job.

I also think California should succeed from the "union." We have all of the following- The 5th largest economy in the WORLD (so the MONEY basically), the land, the food (CA is a world power in agriculture), the resources, the job force, the science, the silicon valley, the military presence, diversity of land (the beaches, the mountains, the desert, the valleys, the hills, etc), biotech firms, famous people, hollywood, LA, SF, San Jose, Stanford, UC Berkeley, the hippies, the sex worker industry, the porn industry... I could go on and on, but CA basically has it all. Fuck the rest of the united states, we could do it ON OUR OWN, and we would be way better for it, everyone would get richer and have more power. Other countries like CA, because they know that it's part of the solution, instead of the problem.



California as its own country. You know that little scheme would work.

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the real Eve

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Real_Eve

Basically, a geneticist made a movie a while ago that proves every single person alive today is related to ONE SINGLE BLACK WOMAN from Africa. I watched it on the discovery channel, but my mom who happens to be head of the math dept at Walnut Creek Intermediate School told me about it before I watched it, so I knew what to expect.



From a genetic standpoint- we're all African. Don't get it twisted!



I would like to go out on a limb and quote Kameelah Phillips, Stanford University alumi and Medical Doctor from The Real World: Boston. "Black men and Women are the kings and Queens of this world."

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las vegas

I've never been to sin city before, but I'm leaving saturday and cummin back monday. I'm so excited. I'm going to take a picture there, and then put it on my space on myspace, so everyone can see a picture of me, hanging out in vegas with my friends, tanning, gambling, and getting a lap dance.

But right now all I'm worried about is my current problem- just who is going to buy that lap dance?? Where is that money at??

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wetness infinity

When I first started to feel it me and Fluff sat down on the floor to smoke a joint. "Damn, this joint is just hitting me SOO good right now" my friend kept exclaiming- priceless. I had SO MUCH FUN with Fluff, she's the funnest girl ever.

It was one of the rare times where I lost all consciousness of my body. I was everyone, and everything. All the pain, all the joy, all the love and all the hate. It all exists in me. We're all only one person, sometimes it's hard to deal with.

I got overwhelming sensations of wetness and infinity. I kept touching my face. It was so wet. If anything stressed me out, it was being so thirsty. I thought I was dead- but alive at the same time. It's hard to explain. I thought about nature a lot.

At some point in the night, Dinaz met up with me. She kept calling me asking me something, but I couldn't help but laugh at her and ask her a million times what the fuck she wanted. I remembered being SUPER annoyed with her. She needed money to get into the club but I only really understood that much after having to talk to her on the phone for what seemed like hours. All I kept hearing was "right now, debit card, apartment, right now, tomorrow, right now, debit card, borrow, can I borrow some cash from you right now, debit card left at your apartment, pay you back tomorrow? Debit card, borrow, tomorrow?" It was hilarious to me, and I asked her so many times what she wanted. "Borrow debit card tomorrow, borrow now" and I kept going on and on with her discussing what the fuck she wanted. Finally she revealed she WASN'T EVEN IN THE CLUB and I got way more annoyed with her. When she got there, I had to look SUPER HARD to find her, because I was tripping really hard and I couldn't see anything. I got so SWEPT UP in all the other people's energies- it was so intense. I went downstairs in a basement by accident and I'm sure I wandered though the club a handful of times.

Dinaz asked me about 25 times where the address was, even though I told her it was on south van ness and 18th in a text message before I even left the house. I'm never tripping again with my phone, it was so annoying having to constantly monitor it. Again, I had NO clue what she wanted and she kept being really lecherous, and it was really getting on my nerves. I finally met her outside and tried to give her all the money I had, but she only took $5. I went back in the party, and Dinaz started calling me AGAIN asking to borrow cash, that her debit card was in my apartment, and she'll pay me tomorrow (turns out she lost her debit card for the umpteenth time and didn't pay me back- not that it matters but it's still funny). I had to find her AGAIN (it was hard) and throw cash at her. She got to the club looking pretty tore up- I asked her if she did drugs that night and she said no, at the time I was convinced that she was lying, but I now think she was telling the truth. I saw her freakishly grabbing assorted B.A.R.T. cards and other white pieces of paper for I don't know what the fuck was- her whole body and face looked sinewy and green and was SHAKING SO MUCH. I think she was on the stairs desperately searching for cash.

I can't fucking believe the door guy made her pay she was standing there for about 15 minutes freaking out. She stumbled into the party bumping into everyone and recoiled in a corner, completely surrounded by a dense group of people. She was making really weird faces and fell to the ground- her troubles were further compounded by the fat bag of shit she was carrying with her at the time- a hodge podge of clothes and who knows what in a huge green bag. I tried to tell her it was OK, that I had what she needed, but she said "I don't know if I have what you need." She fell later on again, I hope she had fun. god knows I luv u girl- but seriously.

things

Yesterday, Dinaz called me at 9:50 p.m. to tell me that her house burned down, and to ask to stay with me. Obviously, I told her that she could stay with me as long as she wanted to. When she finally got to my house at 1 a.m. she told me all about her night, and she was very calm and reserved in spit of loosing 70% of her shit. I got a very clear vision of the sky towards the beach and a fire a few weeks ago, when West left the stove on, and my scooter was broken and I had to take the bus. Who knows the real limits of my psychic powers? I'm the only one who believes in them, but I really feel like they help me a lot.

I feel so bad for her, I can't imagine the added stress of loosing everything and having to find an apartment, especially when school's in session and she's taking 18 units. She had to call Juliana last night to say, "I'm calling to let you know that the house burned down," but seriously, who could ever say that with a straight face. I know I couldn't. I hope I can make her laugh about it, because that's all I can really do for her. I'd like to try to remember that although she came over to my house soaking wet and smelling very heavily of smoke, she managed to grab a backpack full of stuff from her room, her laptop, her sac, and a lighter. lolz. That's my girl.

Other crazy or negative things that have happened to my friends lately:
One friend got evicted, and it having to move out of the city. Her girlfriend also just got arrested and they found 25 hits of acid on her.

Parisa's friend Frey passed away from an overdose last week. Also, Cloyne made national news that week for a bunch of people who were hospitalized for overdosing on weed.

A girl I know came over last week and had a nervous break down.

I got all dressed up in my furturistic warrior outfit, and I went to the love parade on saturday. I realize now that I was dead sober for the whole thing, and I'm glad I was in retrospect. Next year I want to have a lot more fun though. I went to the love parade and my friend Danielle dressed up like a dominatrix. She had a real whip, and was really whipping people. It was .h.o.t. I want to get a whip too.

Last night as I was trying to make myself fall asleep, but I was having a hard time because I had a lot on my mind. I had a realization that I don't like certain sexual activities because of where and how I was touched as a child. Well, maybe I guess, nothing is ever certain in psychology. It made sense to me though.

we create most of our problems...

Yesterday I signed my payroll, and said that I would come into work at 9 a.m. for the rest of the week. I thought about this last night, as I was hanging out with my friend and getting high. "I better just make myself wake up early tomorrow. I never go into work early, and I'm late everyday. I should try to be on time tomorrow. Ok, I will. I'll just get up and go," I thought to myself.

I woke up today at 7 a.m. like always. No matter what day it is, or how long I sleep, I hover between the unconscious and conscious world for anywhere from 1-5 hours. That's why I sleep so much. Most of the time I'm not sleeping just resting. It's hard to escape the fact that it's never going to be ok. :)

I drifted in and out of sleep until I made myself get up at 8:15, even though I remember being awake for about 20 minutes before I actually made myself get up. I put some water in my hair, threw clothes on, and I was ready. I'm young, so I can look cute without putting in too much effort (I didn't even brush my teeth). I never shower in the mornings, because I don't have time.

I checked my hello kitty wallet to see how much money I had. I had $1.35. "They never notice as long as you put money in. It won't matter." Still, I worried that Imight receive the one in a million asshole bus driver who actually checks to make sure you put $1.50 in the box.

I packed my backpack with my lunch, toothbrush, & toothpaste. I woke up Dinaz, who was sleeping on the couch. I was excited that she didn't drool that much on the pillow. I'm just giving her a hard time. Anyways, I packed a bowl for us, and 1 turned into 2. We were smoking out of the new pipe I got in Humboldt, and it really fucks you up. It's yellow and has a lion on it (it's not cheesy). I left the house somewhere after 8:40, and got to the bus stop at 8:47.

"Fuck," I thought to myself. "All I had to do was get to work at 9 a.m. one day. I never go in that early. I never do anything early, or put any effort into anything. I bullshit everything, and I don't understand why I get away with it. Is it because I'm cute or charming? Now I'm at the 28 at 8:47, and I know it's going to be at least a 45 minute drive to SF State. I'm going to be so late."

Lucky for me, the 28L came right after I got to the stop, and it was free. Maybe it's my Sagittarius moon, who knows. I can't wait to pick up my scooter from the shop. The bus is the worst thing ever. ;)